The Buried Life

When realize is just the starting.

2010-08-24T23:10:00.000-07:00

When you grow up from that little being,
When you started mixing with everyone,
When you thought that everything was going well,
When you rocketed sky high with everything,
When you were happy with everything,
When your attitude stood out the most among the rest,
When we all realized you were moving away from the axis of consciousness,
When we all voiced out,
When you never listen,
That's when we gave up,
Then and there.

We can only bring you,
tell you,
guide you,
till this very point,
walk on from here, yourself.

That's all we can do, all I can do.
I know you'll realize it sooner or later, maybe not with us,
but with some other people out there.
Change for the better alright?
I don't want to see you digging your own grave and walking straight into it, but there's really nothing I can do.
Hope you understand.
I hope you REALIZE.

Ego is just simply a mentality of how you think yourself is and carry around without noticing the harm it might bring upon yourself.

Art Of Love

2010-08-23T01:04:00.000-07:00

Hesitant to advance, Fearful of withdrawal.
Don't like this feeling at all.

I'm scared a little for myself, I'm afraid more for you.

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know.

World of Laughters

2010-07-06T01:15:00.000-07:00

nobody ever dies of laughter.

I had huge wacko laughter during last week's Saturday at Tze Heng's house warming, yesterday and today.
Starting from house warming.

Tze Heng's house was amazingly out-of-this-world huge with a spacious front porch which it's already enough for me to jog around.
It was 3-stories high, I tell you if I were to live in that type of house right now, with my parents not around, I would only linger in the ground floor.
Laughter started off with Hui Xin, Kit Mun and Po Xuan picking on Adrian by imitating his laugh, they said it was like a car engine starting *kkkeeekk (pause) keeekkk (pause) kekkkkk and starts laughing, LOL!
Then a version of Yang Sheng's laugh, a smile that cracks on the face and turns away, turns back and it's gone..no one and no one has ever seen him burst into a big laughter, just the grin.==
It's like 'The Silencer'
Then Kar Quin's was the funiest of all.
Watch this.
*HAHAHAHAHAHA, @iu, soh@@ and so forth and with his palm slamming against his fist ==
Even when he laughs he is still so vulgar..

Yesterday.
it's was about the Ceriathon card, they asked us to donate at least 50 bucks (actually it was for us to ask around for donation for people)
Last day to pass it up so I just gave a GENEROUS amount of 10, like what Voon Kaen said.
I never fill in the names and stuffs, so I when I wanted to fill it before I pass it up, they asked for parent's IC ==
Xin said just write my parents birthday and make up the back portion of it.
Father's BD? Dunno. Mother's BD?Dunno Xin was like ==
Then she said leave it. Then the names of the donaters.
There were 4 which my friends simply made it up, the 1st and 4th was normal
2nd was by the name, Ai Saw Hye.
3rd was by the name, Ben Xiao Zhang.
OMG laugh till my stomach cramp a lil bit already, if you don't get it just keep saying it until you get it right. (it's a bad word and the principal)

Today.
After school, stayed back for rehearsal for the performance on Friday.
I, Hui Xin and Zong Lin was walking towards the canteen when Bill was approaching with a HL chocolate milk on his hand,
a chocolate milk addict I was and I asked ''BILL! WHY DIDN'T BELANJA ME?!!"
He was like "Aaaa (thinking of what to say)"
Zong Lin " Ya lor!" Dunno where he got a small part of dunno what plant and place it into Bill's milk.
Bill was like totally wtf and quickly pick it out, damn digusting man.

Zong Lin and Bill was to play an ugly girl.
omg man Bill had this wig like the boy in Karate Kid on his head, 1st he looked funny on it, 2nd he went like "YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND!!" and it fall off, damn funny.
Then left 15 minutes and there's just me, Bill, Hui Xin, Kit Mun and Zong Lin.
We tested every song there was in the CD and the funniest was 'Airplanes' and 'If We Ever Meet Again'
Zong Lin was B.o.B with the wig rapping and I played a small part of Hayley Williams during the chorus, imitating her part in the music video with the arms like an airplane flying around, damn hillarious.
Then again in 'If We Ever Meet Again', Bill started off singing and then chorus took over by Zong Lin. He copied the way of Katty Perry singing, omg that 1 I really drop on the floor laughing like hell..
Oh then there's also when he posed with the wig and said "I AM THE ROCK" with that look of him, you just can't resist bursting into a laugh.
and there was other funny scenes too.
In the end,
We concluded that Zong Lin pawned today's rehearsal.

:(

2010-05-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

a

b

c

d

e

and I can't do a thing about it.

Beyond The Words.

2010-05-04T00:53:00.000-07:00

If I knew things would turn out this way,
I wouldn't have taken that way.
It
drowned
filled
swallowed
taken
me
in
whole
.

Things weren't going well these days,
I felt like everything around me is just going so fast, I'm slowing down?
static.

Prayers have let me walked over so much,
Hope this will too.
So much going through my mind right now.

And the worst part is

Before it gets any better

I'm heading for a cliff

And in the free fall

I will realize I'm better off

When I hit the bottom

How told me 难得找到了，就不要放弃。

Pattern 101

2010-04-12T03:09:00.000-07:00

"A pattern has an integrity independent of the medium by virtue of which you have received the information that it exists. Each of the chemical elements is a pattern integrity. Each individual is a pattern integrity. The pattern integrity of the human individual is evolutionary and not static."

R. Buckminster Fuller (1895-1983), U.S.American philosopher and inventor.

This term was first oftenly used by our very own Koh Jiun How, and then pass on to one another till it became a trend of saying it, which when day goes by, it knocks on the door in your mind that it's so true and you can it everyday, be it in symmetrical or insymmetrical,an entity or being, takes any forms of life with soul or not, it exist everywhere.

Example, exams.
I mean like let's say 30mins before.
If you would just calm down, clear your mind, put everything down, take a few steps out the battleground, widen the view your're staring at, observe attentively, and you would notice something funny.
Minutes before an exam unawarely brings everyone together, stranger or not, they're as close as your family at that time, never notice before? try it next time.

And then there's results time, lagi worse.
Every shit of everyone from everyone can be seen through and through.
I don't know whether that I've ever acted like that, or in a way that would offend somebody when I get my results, anyway I apologise for it, but the truth is that I really feel kinda sick of it already.
I told my friend to keep it general enough so this would be just like this, I really don't want to mention anyone here.

Lastly,

IN YOUR FACE EXAM SCHEDULE!!!

I think this is so cool, what'd you think?

and it seem all so fine those days..those days..

As bad as it seems.

2010-04-02T20:11:00.000-07:00

I felt that this week was one of the worst ever this year,
I had Moral on Monday and I guess it was so so only, time was definitely not on my side, managed to finish all because I spared my toilet time, you know, I can't even have my toilet time, looking at the amount of people going to toilets with only 2 reasons, makes me think that why the heck that they have so much time??

Following few days was MSSKL, got 7..worst in my MSSKL record I guess? Didn't take it seriously this time, cause I can predict how I would perform with the amount of training I have..I skipped 3 days of hell-ish subjects, that's the good part.

Now comes the bad part, the tourney ended 1 day before, supposedly on friday..and so friday was History..I spend my whole day..after the tourney which ended like 10 something..after that had a lil comp time, and then I studied my ass out, no afternoon nap at all..I studied all the way till 12, and I slept and woke up and 2.30..studied again..which comes to mind that out of 24 hours I only had 2.30 nap time..

Hours later, waiting to sit my exam, my teacher came and told me, today must take the exams u missed, I totally stunned, I thought it was like next week, no..today must have 1 subject..I was like I'm so screwed..I only had 2 and 1/2 fucking hours of sleep and you want me to sit for bio papers??? After the history paper 2 my thumb was aching like shit, I managed to sleep awhile after I've finish shooting paper 1..then I went straight for the exam..I already told myself, do paper 1, screw paper 2..I did finish all but I can guess that out of the total marks of paper 2, I can get only like 10 marks?? because I had not even studied. and I thumb ache badly eonough..totally didn't have the mood to do the exams..I used 90 mins to finish 2 bio papers, how cool is that? :D

Whatever it is, I think I'm gonna apologize to Ms.Lee.
I'm gonna give Add Maths paper the shock of it's life, watch out :) of course with a lil help la, haha

In addition, Didi's out of American Idol..How does that make your week great???!!!
Either I find some contestants to like about or I'm not gonna watch it anymore.

everyone has their mood swings, the degree of the swing is what that matters.--me :)

Love, perhaps?

2010-03-03T00:43:00.000-08:00

you go bro :)

Don't mind the title.

...............

Anne Morrow Lindbergh quotted that Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn't seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces.

Well, the week begin a little awkward with me having a sudden fever during midnight,which means I don't have to go to school, yeah.They said during assembly Pn. Fazilah announced about 'a few' classes which had 3 or 4 rubbish dumps, stuffed till it's fullest, not emptied.Pengetua insisted so badly until she had no choice to say it, "5a11, 5a12 dan 5a10"Imagine the 3 best classes in the whole school, the dirtiest! Quite an achievement

Sentosa boleh.

Then big ass sitting beside me, was off for duty at some stadium for 4 days, since he was a yellow Digi man, relevant.I can tell you I was more focus on studies without you sitting beside me, haha..And today Che Haou didn't take his medication, he kept on singing various languages of songs like a MOCKINGBIRD!!But he didn't sound so sweet though, but still he kept on singing, made me laugh my lungs out.

Society after school,
because that friend was also a ketua, and he wasn't here, I had to run the society with all the other people of course.At one time couldn't find Ms Tan, and then saw her teaching form 4 girls physics *smack head
Things went on normally, my 1st time and it went smoothly, was a bit anxious cause it's was my first.
yeap, my first :)
Some of the juniors from PAK and too society kept calling my names, they told me my name was the easiest to remember.
sweeeeeeeet.

I think the new recess time is so ************************************* dumb. Can't even have a proper meeting with ajk's and even if it's just me and Zhen Ee.
She form 6 me 5, different time of recess, crap.
Always have to ponteng a lil here and there just to discuss things with her.
You know if we both don't work things out and save PAK's ass, it's gonna go down the drain.
And having Ms Kok replaced with a new teacher, it's like ookay this teacher is just here to err...to be just here..
PPS that side haven't had a real meeting since that crap recess thing was brought up.

Well, that's probably the things happening around.
take care people.
peace out.

Ups and Downs of Life.

2010-02-22T00:11:00.000-08:00

Warm greetings and Happy Chinese New Year to everyone.
As of today, Malaysia's temperature continue to soar up to 60'c due to the lack of rain and scorching hot sun.
nah just kidding, not that hot but still hot though.

Yesterday night's sleep was disastrous for me,
Up down left right, north south east west, don't know some more got where, firecrackers and fireworks broke the usual midnight serenity, and I face sleeping difficulties.
This morning during perhimpunan, I was so restless, I don't know why, I kept sweating and I felt so hot, stood still and tried to calm myself down, masih tak boleh, so I went to the toilet to get away from the crowd, and guess what? there's this joker singing while doing his business I think, do business then diam diam a bit la please.
Took me awhile to settle down, and Jiun How even helped me calm me down, and I finally did.
Back to normal :)

Looking back at CNY.
Hottest CNY I've ever had in my history of living in dearest Earth.
But overall not bad, still boleh tahan, still enjoyable. But not as merry compared to last time, part of my relatives have migrated to other countries, so practically there's less people to celebrate with. My 2 sisters are also abroad studying, so it's a bit sien without them :( But sometimes I think of it, the idea of my parents giving birth to 3 different age gaps of children is also good, at least when both of my sister are overseas, there's still me to teman them, and then when they come back it's my turn, so we actually take turns to teman them so they won't feel lonely so much.
Imagine if all 3 of our age gaps are so little, 1 year can 3 people ciao also, sure habis 1.

Then, errr went to bai nian with friends too, still have loads of people's house to bomb XD
oh and I went to my friend's friend house too, know him a bit only, but the main thing is rite, his house is so damn ridiculously big, really can't imagine myself staying in such aaay big house.
Small small enough already lar, and also went to another 'china museum house' , can't talk much about it later kena bash, but seriously MUSEUM, imagine it yourself.

This is what I've learned in school today:
We should just be ourselves, be nice, smile, abit of vulgar here and there, make yourself presentable, likable, don't ddly. Most people will do the same to you too :)

For my 2 sisters abroad, in case I forgot to tell you or something, this was what happened.
1 day I was watching tv with ah kung sitting beside me, and suddenly he ask me, it's been 2 years since popo's gone, do you remember her and miss her, did you... then his eyes became teary, I had to comfort him, sometimes do call him and talk to him kay. I can see that he miss her so badly, he almost made me cry too :(
Take care sisters, love you.

The house has never been the same since she left. and I too still miss her badly, so does everybody else.

Complications Are Inevitable.

2010-01-31T08:43:00.000-08:00

Urmm..Don't really know what to start about.

School life go 1st then.

Racial stuffs and canteen was the headlines, but then it's over so there's no need to talk much about it.

Then there comes intervensi, the exam from jabatan which I don't know what the heck is the use of it and it was made 1 of the official exams in our school and I pretty sat for it seriously, well sorta..

Our tables were like a finger length away from each other, and so stuffs happens you know :D

Aiya all these you know I know so don't need to say la, and had a few snapshots of it too, naughty us.

and I just realize school was actually a quite strategic place to take scenery pictures.

Off to birthdays.

January is really a month full of birthdays,

Rin The Blackhole, Hui Jun, Jiun How and so on..

Contributed to most of their presents, Hui Jun's present I've got to buy it myself which it is gonna be a bit late until I get the chance to go out..be patient kay :D

all these signals my wallet is getting slimmer D: , but then okay lar once every once in a year.

Friend friend ma, and like what How always say to me: 这个世界这么大，为什么偏偏要我遇见你这个sensored leh? and I always tell him the same thing 缘分.

Well, but still some complications are just inevitable right?

Since the time the issue of not wishing 1 friend happy birthday was brought up, again and again, and again...things begin to go off road.

I just felt like there's already a communication problem going way wrong, and it's still.

And I can tell you something too, you're the only one I know who talks to me with different tones that shows you don't like something. and maybe you would say I'm sensitive, maybe you're right, but only to you I guess, because you really the only who does that.

I feel like bringing up this problem, but knowing you..you would just do something predictable.

Man this sucks la, feeling all so fucked up inside, teachers fucking with you, people are fucking with you.. sucks so badly.

You know what, since entering this class, I've really experienced tons of shits which are such strangers to me, and I know there's more to come.

Seeing someone that's almost a close friend change is really something to 'wow' and be amaze of seriously, you really wouldn't even imagine it.

Anyway, I've told myself whatever it is, you're already in here.

Stop wining and accept it.

You can't and will not leave this class, there's no way.

So, why not I just blend in and just be happy, screw those teachers, do what what you can and have fun.

and myself couldn't agreed more.

Big smile :D

When Live Gives You Lemons, You Make Lemonade.

(lemons means lemons ah, don't come up with stupid ideas to replace lemons.)

1st Day of School-------------SUCKS!!

2010-01-04T06:06:00.001-08:00

Before I go in the main title of the day..
I like to say something about my blog,
I rite.., manged to ABANDON IT FOR FREAKING 8 MONTHS!!
I checked the dashboard and the sky that made my day for that day, became my last post ever.
Even po xuan memorized it already...awwww
So picked today to restart again, good day huh? :D

Then the main thing,
as you know 1st day of school, parents gets all choked up because their kids are finally going for school for the 1st time. *applause, have a great time, long way ahead.
but then you parents don't need to jam up the whole OUG the gua just to pick your precious kids from big ol' YOKE NAM
OUG.......jammed ==''

Sigh, Sentosarians..that's what they call, started our at assembly at about 8 after the big cooling rain..when later it turn out to be sunny..Those teachers and headmistress talk and talk and talk, as usual we talk and talk and talk too..but we still lose to them, we talk finish already they still haven..plus with the hot sun, they had a mouthful of 'compliments' from us. EAT THAT!
Asked zong lin whether he wants stand at my place.

Want anot? Don' want.

Want anot? Don't want.

Want anot? Don't want.

suan.

Jiun How leh..gave him that look and point the place in front of me, asking him too want anot?this time I don't want to talk.
Don't want also. Minutes later, gave that I'M SO DARN HOT look.
Totally gave up on them.
There's this prefect too, form 3 I guess, typical malay prefect.
Kept asking the girls from this class to move forward where there's a gap and there's where the sun's lazer beam shoots at. They resist. but she kept on asking.
She stands beside me, fan sei yan.
I was thinking man, people so fair and lovely and fair and you ah.................. figure the next few words yourself.. I didn't say anything.

Then started class lo. This time sit behind Xin and Xuan.
No one sit behind me, can have all the space again :)
Beside the window, not too bad, the okok scenery is fine to look at and day dream.
Morning's the best la. cool and cosy, just the right moment to sleep.
and right no more add maths and maths for breakfast, totally all changed.
except, he's our form teacher now. it's still nowhere near good. :(
anyway, form 5 already..
just for record, yesterday fly.fm was like counting down for the best songs for the decade!
Yea, that's the speed of time.
And another decade more it's 2020.
Hooray! cheers! what's next then?
just pray everything goes smooooooooothly in 2012. *praying hard :X

So..
This is it...
This is where the fun begins.
Good day people.

2009-04-20T08:38:00.000-07:00

todays pretty morning sky made my day ;)

it was just so wallpaper ish..

bright cresent moon, a bright star not far from it, and a jet plane making a line of artificial cloud

and the sky

fuiyoh!

- V peace V-

-J²™-

2009-04-12T06:46:00.001-07:00

sighsighsigh

I still can't seem to like that class

all I need is just to find these 3 particular things,

why should I give in my best and get high placing in 12?

my comfort zone.

the perfect time.

should all be answered and with a lil bit of luck

everything comes together in time

then eventually I'll give my best

and beat them one by one

....I guess

till then,

god bless me

praying hard (:

-J²™-

2009-04-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Zong Lin here.

Big boy already.

Be good and don't always gek the add maths teacher aka KFC

He old already la later he get strok again how?

sorry can't attend your celebration, sick mah.

-J²™-

Hope [i]t Gives You Hell

2009-03-27T10:39:00.000-07:00

Exam results.....
I can't really say it's really bad..
I think it's a very normal thing for me getting 59% for my average...
but somehow things are waaaay different if you're in that class,
people make a big fuss out of it, and it's practically an alone stuff.
you see, because everybody else gets 75 80 90 and me on the other hand gets....59 :D
special right? I'm always the special one..

almost every subject I SUCCESSFULLY achieve the lowest marks,
my friend was like 'you damn toooot la you, you sure simply tooot this exam 1'
I was like how high you think I can get? this is me, the usual me and the typical marks I get
he still give me the 'I don't believe you' look.

Teachers....
aren't really happy about it I guess..
Target are locked on me, throwing questions at me all the time,
I think it's not wrong to do that,
but sometimes it just trips me off and makes me wanna shout at them
'can you ....... get off my back'
I can seriously tell you ways like that aren't gonna make me score those stupid grades
and guess what, doesn't mean you want that certain grade (surely want A 1 la, what nonsense are you talking)
Doesn't mean that I have to get it,
I can't really satisfy everyone, so the main thing is just me and myself.

If you're hoping I could become like one of those, no maybe at least just half of those students in that class,
I'm so sorry to disappoint you that there's no way it's gonna happen.
I'm the type of person that seeks moderation, and don't really give high hopes on myself, but it depends on what condition it is la.
I don't really want to be the smartest, nor the stupidest, actually there's no such thing as stupidest, I just wanna be the middle fella.

so just get off my back and quit biting me, let me roam on my own capability, don't ever try to push me off the edge, it's not gonna be good.
Try thinking of this,
I'm everything they're not, they're everything I'm not
feel better?

(mr. lim's target for my chemistry --70% )
I try my best k?
heeeeeeee XD

endurance, patience,time and good friends are what I really need to help me get through this year which are full of creeps and shits.
all these is what I really feel deep down under.
if it hurts or causes discomfort to anyone,
go toooot yourself??
no no no, accept my apologies then.
and smile k ?
heeeeeeeeee XD

-J²™-

2009-03-21T01:51:00.000-07:00

uh ohhhh....

....something is back....

and it's getting bigger....

....this is so bad....

-J²™-

2009-03-20T10:40:00.000-07:00

I proudly present mah drawing

p/s : can only be drew under nervous / freaked out / scared conditions

Thank you for spending your time here :D

-J²™-

2009-03-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

18th of March of the year 2009

after mamak-ing with friends at night

which the total was 82 bucks for 4 person

sapu-ed everything

and then my friends mom fetched me back home

at my doorstep

I waited for people to open the door for me

my friend also wanted to take back his basketball

and I was bragging about how pretty the stars was that scattered across the night sky

and then out of the blue

me: (stunned) was that a........?
friend: ........... it was a meteor
me: ........omfg 'O'

I was totally stunned and speechless and happy at the same time

I didn't know what to say

and then I told everyone in the house, all thought I went crazy already

I was crazy, and also cannot believe that I actually saw 1

and as my first sighting of it, it was just up above my house

and then before I sleep, I still had to digest the fact that I saw one

I was also smilling the whole time, I sleeping also smilling

imagine eujin smilling while he's sleeping, like having a ham sap dream like that :P

But then seriously, everything was so cartoonish, so animated..

the way the meteor streak across the sky..

I really can't describe it,

It was just one, imagine me watching a meteor shower

me will go nuts @.@

and of course..

after seeing must make wishes 1 right? :)

I shall make this day one of my lucky days

-J²™-

2009-03-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

Being in a devastating situation wasn't that bad after all,

you can sometimes find happiness in it too.

ironic isn't it?

correct me if i misuse this word, it's my first time (=

If it wasn't because of them

I would be

DEAD

GONE

god bless sj and sy and other form 5's for tomorrow

-J²™-

2009-03-10T23:36:00.001-07:00

WHAT THE FROG WAS THAT!!!???

HOW COULD THAT HAPPEN!!!??

why the heck did you freak out??!!

for what god damn reason???!!

got your freaking mind all jammed up and what, forget every shit?!!

what were you scared of??!!

teachers??

what teachers would say?

think of you?

for getting bad marks??

or even flunking it??

how many times does it need to repeat itself??

even if you're in 12

you don't need to care about what people think of you!

afraid that they're gonna scold you in front of the whole class?

so what??

embarrassing?

come on la..

if you know this was gonna happen

why bother making a big fuss when the teacher didn't let you enter 12 in the 1st place?

which part of you deserves so freaking much to be squezzed in to 12?

what subject are so good in that other people suck like shit?

malay?

maths?

english?

oh you think your's is damn good la..

grow up la..

the 1st thing that you need to get rid is your goddamn stupid attitude of caring about what other people thinks or whatever

mouths theirs,

brains theirs,

you can't control them right??

there's more of these people out there la

YOU HAVEN SEEN THEM ALL YET

when you go out there and met them all,

what are you gonna do?

stuff shits into every mouths ah?

think of it.

these is only the 1st term.

whatever it is, I've swore not to be depressed over a damn paper anymore.

it's so not worth it

I seriously have no idea how to go though the year.

what am I gonna do to keep myself afloat in 12?

..........i need help )=

sighsighsighsigh

2009-03-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

Don't worry

be happy

cause every little thing

is gonna be alright

whatever the outcome is,
just smile,
it may not solve the problem,
but at least it cheers you up
and puts your mind at ease.

just

leng mou?

-J²™-

Starry Starry Night

2009-02-21T20:39:00.000-08:00

MTM ANTARA LEMBAGA

Librarians, Prefects, Sports Prefects hamblang joined together

and it turned out to be quite fun actually..

everybody was darn handsome and gorgeous

food was okay

atmosphere? high and higher and way up high and all the way up to da sky!

MC was hillarious, btw tun khong should brush up his lame jokes a bit :P

and then there was Yew Onn's band and break dance preformance from Mustang Crew

both equally yeng~

I don't want to upload pics cause lazy

so for picture viewing please proceed to to the other members of my friends

this year a bit lack of pics but nvm lar..

I'll put up 1 lovely picture of us

1st group pic in 4 years !

oh and 2 more..

prom king in da house!

he's trying to make people focus on the shinny crown badge

squint your eyes and look closely :D

guitarist of da night!

take care people!

-J²™-

Happy Valentines Peeps!

2009-02-14T07:37:00.000-08:00

I met her on 5th of Jan 09

It was a love at first sight

And then destiny brought us closer together

and eventually love took affection on both

we've been together for 39 days now

and I can imagine us being together for another few years

but still I sometimes feel I haven't really fully understand her yet

I don't whether she feels the same

and I know she also has many questions for me

though she reveals it little by little

the too damn difficult ones and never the too damn easy ones

and I also know there's more to come in time

but I just want to answer all those questions

with those 3 words

I Love You.

and it's only for the one and only
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Additional Mathematics (:
btw, is add maths a she?
okay I'm sorry for being lame,
I'm just bored now.
spended the day understanding add maths and
GOD I WISH I COULD ANSWER THEM ALL WITH THOSE 3 WORDS!!!!

anyway,
Happy Valentines peeeps,
May god bless the lovely people I've loved, love, loves, always loving and forever loving
please grant it god, thank you!

-J²™-

Singlish chat from 98.7FM Singapore

2009-01-31T09:56:00.000-08:00

Have A Laugh :)

What's life without mother nature?

2009-01-31T09:37:00.000-08:00

oPhoto's I took during church camp

self-proclaimed one of the best pictures I've ever took ;D

although just taken with a lousy cybershoot pohone and not with an DSLR

effects of the solar eclipse

( enlarged is prettier )

GO GREEN!

SAVE MOTHER NATURE!

PEACE!

2009-01-19T01:11:00.000-08:00

Apolojeeesussss to you peeps for not updating this blue-ish dead blog..
you see..
form 4 life ain't really that honeymoon kind and since I managed to get my butt into the 1st class..it became more hectic than ever. ( I loved form 3 life better than now )
Those teachers are meaner than ever, psychopath-er than ever, everything that is bad for us + than ever..
The class?
smarter than ever, faster than ever, everything also + than ever..
me?
always one step behind them..I guess? I personally think so la..
I don't know how to describe myself in that class..
sometimes I just hated myself for being so high enthusiastic wanting to change to that class..
since young I already told and swear to myself, no matter whether you're capable or not don't ever go to that class...
now it's like the song from paramore :
THAT'S WHAT YOU GET!
my version :
THAT'S WHAT YOU GET, DUMBASS!

I really want to go back to 11, it's already the best class for me..
that class has the right pace for me, not to fast not to slow :D
for me right, the more the teacher suck the better
but on the other hand the terrer the teacher the worse for me.
why? I don't know too, ask God.
but whatever it is..
I of course will try my best like what all those peeps say..
and parents already told me if I get last also it's ok, but try your best.
and so I will..but
I think still will get last larrr right..???
who cares la..the most important thing is that
I DON'T BECOME A BOOKSHIT LIKE WHAT THAT RIN SAID!
BOOKSHIT IS SO OUT OF MY DICTIONARY!!
FOREVER STAND AGAINST BOOKSHITsssss !!!
and that's basically how my everyday life in 12 is la..
always trying to be the naughtiest boy in 12 for 2009..
trying to catch peoples tail..
always trying..
1 day I cannot tahan d I'll burn that tail to ash so there's no more tail to catch! muahahaha :D

on the other side of my world,
being apart from my darling courts and shoes and rackets and etc.. for 4 months+
I just found out that I wasn't the only fella who became lazy to play squash after PMR
heeeeeeeee XD
anyway,
went to join the MSSKL tournament, without any training but lucky me I ran almost counted as regularly..
so got a bit of stamina, but guess what? I'm still good :)
that level that still okay la can hit and everything and can still beat the shit out of people!
how proud can I be? well tougher days are ahead..I bet these guys are just small obstacles, big ones are coming!
brace yourselfs for muscle cramps!! arghh!!

lastly, words for Isr.. country,
you toot-ing peeee eye geeeesss are so toot-ing peee eye geeee,
inhumane son of a pee eye gee !
damn blardy toot-ing toot-tards!
wanna bomb bomb your own retarded country la..
stuck one grenade up your a** and blow up yourselfs la..
because of one small strip then start bombing people like hell!
luckily you've already ceasefire..
if not when there's huge earthquake that shakes the whole earth,
you're the first country that's gonna go deep into the crust!
and the last one is also you!
burn the shti out you a-holes!

to Gaza, god bless you peeps la..you people rock!
peace man!

-J²™-

2009-01-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

well.. screw what the researchers said but I really think resolutions are cool..

I already have a few in my mind..

The previous 1 was trash la..

This 1's the real one..

1. Live life to the max and be happy always :)

2. Play squash has a hobby and try playing other sports , and also swim more often!

3. Eat more foods!

4. Get mah own guitar and learn seriously from Jiun How

5. Start saving money to buy my dream dog. I present you dah Siberian Huski :D

It's a beauty aite??

Dad says puppy cost 2k, darn it'll take me years to save but who cares la.

6. well I guess this the last 1 already, STUDY HARD, PARTY HARD!

Only six, I guess that's enough, I don't need so much.

Wish me luck on accomplishing it.

Tomorrow's school already, guess I can't wait to go back, school's cool

and seriously, I hope I won't be late for the 1st day.

*praying hard :P

-J²™-

2009-01-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

London: So decided to turn over a new leaf in 2009? Just give a second thought, for a New Year resolution could do you more harm than good, according to a mental health charity in Britain. Mind has urged people not to try to stick to New Year resolutions for self-improvement.
According to the charity, resolutions which focus on physical imperfections, such as bids to lose weight, create a negative self image and lead to feelings of hopelessness, low self-esteem and even mild depression.

And when those optimistic resolutions fail that could trigger feelings of failure and inadequacy, the charity said. “New Year’s resolutions can sometimes focus on our problems or insecurities such as being overweight, feeling unhappy in our jobs or feeling guilty about not devoting enough time to friends and family throughout the year. “We chastise ourselves for our perceived shortcomings and set unrealistic goals to change our behaviour, so it’s not surprising that when we fail to keep resolutions, we end up feeling worse than when we started.
“In 2009, instead of making a New Year’s resolution, think positively about the year to come and what you can achieve,” Mind chief executive Paul Farmer was quoted by The Daily Telegraph as saying.

And, instead of easily broken resolutions the charity has suggested a few steps to improve all round mental health in 2009: Being active—exercise releases endorphins and even a gentle stroll is beneficial for your mental wellbeing; going green—evidence has shown that connecting with nature can boost moods; and learn something new—it will keep your mind stimulated and give you confidence in your abilities.

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I have an excuse so,
no more resolutions more me :)
yay!

2009-01-01T08:12:00.000-08:00

here comes 2009 resolutions

1. hunt for great foods everywhere

2. urm... don't know yet, go with 3 1st

3. .........

damn..I suck at resolutions..

well, just go with flow mate.

-J²™-

2009-01-01T07:10:00.000-08:00

this fellow page here looks quite dead..
so I'm here to save it, occasionally :D

1st of all, of course, Happy New Year to all of you peeps out there..
well, few minutes more and it's the end of January 1 2009
time freaking flies..
urm, glad to tell you all the stormy days of PMR are over, officially, past tense already.
I had the best Christmas present ever, and I'm freaking satisfied okay
I've gotten what I've ever dreamed of, fight for, pray for, cried for and somemore what for..?
practically everything for that darn thing.. yeap I'm happy :))))))))))))

well after that good thing kept coming..
before that also got la..Hong Kong for Christmas..
but my heart wasn't that settled..
was really afraid to buy any stuffs there even it really got my eyes on it..I still told myself wait till I get my results only buy all you want okay.
but i still manage to get some stuffs, with fear~

Then barbeque with loads of family members and counting down loud loud, at home..
and then just went Sunway Lagoon, almost 3 or 4 or 5 years didn't print my footprint there already, finally got da chancy..
roam around all 5 parks..
that stupid scream park was creepy and had those spinning stuffs illusion which I'm still spinning at times..damn thing.
Then rollercoaster and stuffs and water parks and rides and water and rides and water..
Then that's all for the day, whole day was playing and having fun.
having fun for the last few days of holidays before going back to school right?

what about 2009 resolutions?
never thought of it. never had 1 before.
but maybe I'll think about it, just to let myself be aware of what I'm gonna do next and what's next to pray hard for :)

-J²™-

2008-12-06T10:40:00.000-08:00

The Rockefeller Center Christmas Tree in New York
Ain't it pretty??
Christmas is like being celebrated so so so I forgotten the word..
what's Malaysia doing?? ishh..

I had this funny dream last night..
I dreamed I was in New York,
what a dream...

I would just like to have a dog there..
and jog with it everyday in Central Park or Madison Square Garden..
and stare at the sky waiting for the meteor seasons to come..
:D

I'mma smally boy with big dreams aite :)

2008-12-03T21:07:00.000-08:00

Me am so waiting for this show..
It look so cool and there's Keanu Reeves acting in it!!
Saw the trailer..it's so darn cool!!
Cool effects and everything and there's leng zai to see also..
2 in 1!!
waiting patiently..

aren't girls/boys with blue eyes the prettiest thing on earth..
they're so lucky..

-J²™-

2008-12-03T20:58:00.000-08:00

Here's my update la Sheng!
I suddenly remembered this poem showed to us during tuition in Kasturi..
It's damn funny and will be lil bit naughty if you don't think straight :P

My First Time

The sky was dark
All alone Just her and I.

Her hair so soft Her eyes so blue
I knew just what She wanted to do.

Her skin so soft Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers Down her spine.

I didn't know how But I tried my best
To place my hand On her breasts.

I remember my fear My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread Her legs apart.

And when she did it I felt no shame
All at once The white stuff came.

At last it's finished It's all over now
My first time........

Milking a cow!!!

(I bet you were not thinking straight! :D )

-J²™-

2008-11-29T11:20:00.000-08:00

Me found this great song from youtube..
This song is about an 18 year old girl who was about to get married. Her fiance was in the military, fighting war, and just before the wedding, he was killed.
I guess it's a tribute to the late American soldiers..
but I don't know why I just can't stop loving it :)

Carrie Underwood- Just A Dream

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white, going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
A sixpence in her shoe, something borrowed, something blue

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down, trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up
And sang the saddest song that she ever heard

Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh and what could have been
And then the guards rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

live as if you'll die tomorrow.
dream as if you'll live forever.
*still and always praying hard..

-J²™-

2008-11-29T11:01:00.000-08:00

It's been raining for days already, and once start will last for hours..
it's nice but not that nice for the low lying areas..
they're gonna go through a hell of a time..
and what's wrong with the world nowadays..
can't we homo sapiens be a bit more civilised or something?
you bomb me I bomb you (Mumbai),
you don't make new elections and step down I'm gonna protest like shit! ( Thailand)
Malays can't perform yoga, haram (Malaysia)
and lots more, and to those Somalians, stop freaking hijacking people's vessels la..go build your own 1 la dumb dumb!
ishh, can't freaking stand them..

btw have you all ever go and see those feng shui master??
mummy went and deal with this feng shui fella for somethings, work..and then ask him about each of our feng shui stuffs..
and this is what he said about me..
urm..a thinker (which everybody doubts including me, highly) and ok in studies..gonna get very distracted next year, everything also want to learn things, but don't know really know what, so he told my mum to watch me closely..
and very bad tempered boy but keeps everything to himself..and when he let's it out it's gonna be huge..(this 1 is freaking true wey! but don't know about the letting out part :P )
and then I have lots of helps from some spirit life form..I don't know how to say in english..in cantonese they call it 'guai yan'..
and then 40 years of good life..he said to my mum that this boy is very lucky..muahahaha..

I guess everything is quite true..
but some is still doubtful..
but really never thought that someone could actually tell that I keep everything to myself..he must be a great guy :)

till here I guess..

hope. dream. imagine.

-J²™-

2008-11-26T23:42:00.000-08:00

Went to Mid Valley yesterday with normal 6 buddies..
Ate Mcdonalds for luch,
and I tell you those McShakers (I guess that's what they call them) are so darn salty,
I don't know how my friends are able to finish the whole packet..yuck!
I'm better off with the normal ones..
Then watch Madagascar 2, not too bad..
Hilarious, entertaining at least...

and then on my phone,
and it vibrated..6 miscalls from an unknown number
I thought who the heck was that, and as usual I didn't care about it..
and then that fella called, I picked up..
me: hello?
She: hello? hello ini siapa?
me: (I was like what? a Malay fella?)...
She: then she quickly ask again, Apa you mau?! (angrily)
then I just cut the line..must be a wrong number I guess..
Then few minutes after that she sent a SMS saying about what bank stuffs and craps..
I didn't want to care much still..hope she just leaves me alone..

We continued the day by walking around The Gardens..
I can tell that place isn't the place for me to walk about..
It'll be very harmful to my wallet :P

Well, the day was okay..
Came back home and had a headache..darn..
I regreted playing the arcade..it was such a waste of money..
should have rather played bowling..
eii xuan, next time we'll play okay..
don't care about the others..muahahaha..
I'd spend money on that rather than the arcade..
heeeeee XD

Gems may be presious, but friends are priceless

-J²™-

2008-11-24T11:02:00.000-08:00

JUST IGNORE THIS POST

To all you fing humans out there..
I wasn't born to owe you fing people,
so get that in your fing thick brain..
I've made a mistake ONCE,
and offended peoples..
I know my mistakes..
and I'll promise to make it up by doing something right,
and it'll satisfy you,
and whether it satisfies I don't know and I don't give a fing damn..
cause I know I've done something right to cover up my mistakes..
but also get that in your fing think brain that the mistakes I've made doesn't give you the privilege to use that against me for my whole life on any occasion to like make me feel guilty or whatsoever,
because after I cover my up my mistakes I don't feel fing guilty..

Doesn't mean that I always be polite and laugh around to you people and you would always think 'ahh this boy wouldn't get angry, he's a very open minded 1, won't be upset about anything'
I being nice and polite to you because I'm don't want to offend you and make you angry which I don't fing like to..
but everyone has their limits okay, and I bet not a lot of you people has ever seen me getting angry..you wouldn't like it..I'm not gonna be me when I get angry..

arrghh,
what another retarded post..
and of course this wasn't wrote to offend anybody..
:)

-J²™-

2008-11-23T12:41:00.000-08:00

*sigh sigh sigh
Lended a ear to a friend just now..
she has many problems..
more than me I think..but since saying out makes her feel better..
so just listen a bit lo..no harm right?
I guess...........

*sigh
you can do it larh kay..
you're just going through a serious metamorphosis..
you'll get through it la kay..
everybody goes through it..
well, I guess again..
but once you come out of it..
you'll be a better person..
I guess.........

and thanks Xin for the notes..
I don't know whether it's guitar or piano cause after Jiun How the pro verified it..
he said it was for classical guitar but can use for piano also..he thinks...
but still thank you..

geee..
I suddenly thought what are the wonders of the world..
well of course my own opinion la..
hmm...
guess I'll figure it out before I go to sleep..
yea..I'll do that :)

congratulations Jiun How,
you finally blogged..
*BIG HUG HUG HUGS TO YOU!! :D

I'll give the world to see you once again..
just once? please?
heeeeeeeeeeeee XD

-J²™-

2008-11-22T10:35:00.000-08:00

darn..
I have the most lovely family and the most irritating, noisy, only-know-to-scream family..
everyday only know how to scream, scold and shout and whatever..
just so irritating..
then out of the blue will treat you nicely 1 oh..
memang xiao..
I just can't take it anymore..

ahhh..
I want to learn piano!!
anyone have the Fall For You notes?
I can't find it!!
darn darn darn crap crap crap!!

-J²™-

2008-11-20T08:45:00.000-08:00

gawd, it's been 2 days already since I had a good night sleep..
I'm not thinking of anything..darn..
I hope tonight I'll get a good sleep..
*praying hard!!

Went for basketball again..
Guess who we saw at the courts..
Sri Sentosa Form 5's..
They're having SPM and they're PLAYING BASKETBALL!!
Yes they're not in the science stream class and have an off today but shouldn't they be studying at home?
I don't know whether to envy them or whatever..
but no doubt they're basketball skills are darn goooooooood!!
is getting a stomach ache when I play basketball evitable or what?
I always get it! crap!

Since I can't sleep I decided to wake up at 6 and play the comp :P
I watched a video..a seriously retarded video about a German kid..
Enjoy it :D

Angry German Kid

and the last thing..
Happy Birthday to Daddy and PoPo..
ate at Ru Ee restaurant to celebrate daddy's birthday..
and for Popo's birthday..
I bet she's having a wonderful celebration up there..
take care Poly, I'll always miss you

Being left by someone that you love most and also loves you is dejecting,
but knowing she's leaving and is going to a better place is comforting too :)

*still praying very hard,
for myself and adding a few friends in :D

-J²™-

2008-11-17T09:55:00.001-08:00

That day will come to you,
It'll be over soon,
and I know you're gonna be fine...
you're gonna be just fine :)

it'll all get better in time,
next year, the next 2 years, 3 years..
it'll slowly fade,
trust me :)

*praying really hard,
feel like touching those Bio books..
but don't want to :(

-J²™-

2008-11-15T01:57:00.001-08:00

omg, yesterday night was real weird..
my brain must be lack of oxygen or something..

must be the chocolates..

too long didn't eat chocolates..

yesh..it must have been them!!

still got 3 bars of Cadburry..

daddy bought 4!!!

omg, heaven!!

gaaaa...

maybe lack of sleep and oxygen?

or too much air in the head?

masuk angin?

the consequences of playing too much comp @.@

just waiting for the right moment to strike :P

-J²™-

2008-11-14T09:44:00.000-08:00

*sigh

yesterday was the release of UPSR results..

well 1st of all congratulations to Vicky Vic's brother for getting 5A's

he deserves it, actually I don't know Vic's bro but just want to congratulate him narh..

then today there's the whole page about it..

joyfull and satisfied kids with their result, the grins on their faces..

then my mother asked

mum: hey jin, last time you get how many A's ah?

me: 2 only

mum: har, so little only ah?

me: yes, so? what are you gonna do about it?

mum: aiya, you 'char' la you'

me: *rolls the eye and mumbled the F word

that's why I'm so worried about my PMR results..

I don't want this to happen..

people say who cares if you get bad results, you've tried your best and that's all that matter..

it matters a lot to me..

think about it, it's just UPSR and after 3 years people still ask about it..

what about PMR then? double the years?

and I'm gonna reply 2A's again?

It'll be haunt you for life wey..

and it'll be embarrassing..

and I've made up a very important decision..

thought a lot about it..every night until I cannot sleep for some time...

I know this decision would let a lot of people down..

and also have a very bad impression of me in other peoples eyes..

look down on me and whatsoever..

but I learned that I cannot satisfy everybody, and I wasn't born to do that too..

I know what I want and I don't have to care about other people..

I'll just find the righteous time to tell..

I won't regret..

I guess..

Some things happen to us which we never recover, and they disrupt the normalcy of our lives.

That's how life is.

people are praying, so am I..

the hardest ever..

-J²™ -

2008-11-14T05:36:00.000-08:00

celakarrrr, pada mulanya saya sudah hampir habis menulis post ini tetapi suddenly teringat kawan saya suruh saya tulis dalam Bahasa Melayu pulak..
Then saya perlu cancel semua dan tulis semula..

semalam main bola keranjang dengan mereka..
didn't lepas aeroplane..
bermain dengan mereka tambah lagi 2 unknown..
satu sangat panjang punya..yang satu lagi sangat lebar..
tetapi dua-dua pun sangat geng punya..
then selepas itu kami pergi makan di mamak..
vicky vic terpaksa tapao minuman dia kerana mak dia datang..
saya hanya order Milo Ice..
the other 2 itu order tak tau apa dan makan tak tau apa..

I think How makan 2 packet nasi lemak..Sheng makan mee goreng or something like that..
wah..macam sedap wey..MACAM saja okay..
Then kami pergi main lo..
tidak lama kemudian,
How cakap dia punya perut sakit..
sudah pergi 2 kali toilet..
then after that Sheng punya turn..
tak pergi toilet..tahan macam shit..
kacau saya makan lunch saja..
Then pun hujan lo..berteduh di bawah satu bumbung..
saya main basketball in the rain lo, then 2 orang itu keep on saying sakit perut..
but they all still mau pergi main snooker..
okay lo..fine lo..I go back home, they go snooker..
so end lo..

apa yang you all cakap that time saya ada dengar punya..
so don't worry kay..
I'm fine..

oh ya..feel free to check out my website
www.jin.com.my

I can't believe I just wrote this post..
whatever that was written here was written in a drunk condition and am not aware of what I'm typing..
so retarded..@.@

-J²™-

2008-11-12T22:03:00.000-08:00

well, this tag was from Hui Xin..
it was actually 2 months ago..
but because I'm too lazy and don't have the time to do such a long tag..
so I decided to do it after PMR..
so now I'm doing it..
This is what I'll have to do..
crap I can't copy it @.@

a. Put your Itunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question press next to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
d. Put this on your blog.

so here it goes..

1. If someone says, " is this okay?"
Natasha Bedingfield-Angel

2. How would you describe yourself?
Secondhand Serenade- YOUR CALL!!! (I have no idea how to describe myself, so you describe me your own way, YOUR CALL! XD )

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
S Club 7- Have You Ever ( have I ever really liked something about a guy/ girl? heeeee XD )

4. How do you feel today?
The Click Five- Empty (totally true....)

5. What is your life purpose?
Celine Dion- From This Moment

6. What is your motto?
Vitamin C- Graduation Song ( to graduate? I guess...)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Gavin DeGraw- Chariot

8. What do you think of your parents?
Secondhand Serenade- Your Call (again...)

9. What do you think about very often?
Leona Lewis- Bleeding Love ( I think of bleeding that much....? )

10. What is 2+2?
Jesse McCartney- It's Over

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Jaci Velasquez- Imagine Me Without You (damn,just imagine that,you're everything to me T.T )

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Boys Like Girls- Thunder (your voice was the soundtrack of my summer) :P

13. What is your life?
Avril Lavigne- Complicated (really? that would be the suckiest thing wey)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas- This Is Me

15. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Natasha Bedingfield- Angel @.@

16. What will you dance at your wedding?
Jet- Look What You've Done (that's like so sad....)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Gavin DeGraw- Chariot lol!!!

18. What is your hobby/ interest?
Katherine Mcphee- Over it (I'm over with my interest..)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Secondhand Serenade- Fall For You....darn..

20. What is your biggest secret?
David Archuleta- Crush

21. What do you think of your friends?
Westlife- I Do

22. What will you post this as?
Shane Ward- Breathless

I'll tag..
the next 5 after 'My Friendster' at the link list..
Hui Xin you've done this so you don't have to do it already..
Have fun guys :P
*sigh you all are darn lucky you can copy straight from my blog..darn

can't believe I forgotten to put the sign again, darn

-J²™-

2008-11-12T10:29:00.000-08:00

*sigh
alright I didn't finish the book in time..
But but but, I'll continue it next tommorow..
I promise kay..XD

Tommorow gonna play basketball, again..
It gets me out of my house..
and not just stick my ass on the comp and playing it the whole day..
that'll be boring right?

got to go peeeps..
it's late now..
don't wanna miss tommorow's plan right..
later they'll say FFK again and call me the Aeroplane King..
heee XD...
happpy to be it, one of a kind..
frankly I don't care what they say la..

scrambles off~

it's hard to explain the unexplainable..

-J²™-

2008-11-12T01:19:00.000-08:00

currently reading '90 Minutes In Heaven'..
well..break for a while..
but am determined to finish it by tonight..
IF and IF I finish reading it,
it would be my 1st ever book to be finished reading..
well..all these while all the books that I've touch,
only managed to read it halfway then I don't care about them already..
heeee XD

and have you all ever heard I DO from Westlife?
darn..it's so nice~

WESTLIFE- I DO
Tell me can you feel my heart beat
Tell me as I kneel down at your feet
I knew that there would come a time
When these two hearts would entwine
Just put your hand in mine
Forever

For so long I have been an island
Where no one could ever reach these shores
We've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this I swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
If you ask will
I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

I'm ready to begin this journey
Well I'm with you with every step you take
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this I swear

So please believe me
For these words
I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
If you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

So come on just take my hand
Oh, come on let's make a stand for our love
I know this is so hard to believe
So please

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
And do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

And if you ask will I be true
And do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

-J²™-

2008-11-11T09:19:00.000-08:00

wassup peeps..
well today was some day..
Jiun How actually came to my house to teach me guitar :D
well...he's like the first friend of my friends from school to step his foot into my house, so be GRATEFUL!! :P

well..we got started..
Thunder..found the notes and he played a while but changed his mind cause it was too hard for him..
Then comes Fall For You!!
well..the tune wasn't as good and soothing as piano but that'll do it narh..
cant wait to get my hands on those piano!! arghh!!!
I learned and tried, learned and tried..
after 5 hours..I only know how to play the starting and the chorus..darn..
I'm learning so slow :(
And my wrist is beginning to ache..
well..cant't give up..
told myself to master it within a few weeks..
btw, guitar is not hard..
it's just the way of positioning your lil fingers on those strings..
it hurts because you have to press it real hard to make a good tune of it..
but..guess I'll make it :P

next song would be...
MORE THAN WORDS!!
Jiun How played it and it was like so so so nice..ahhhhhhhhhhh~

*sigh!!
Btw, Chariot is one good song..
and the way Gavin DeGraw plays it on piano..bravo!! :D

-J²™-

2008-11-10T09:09:00.000-08:00

okay..
this is getting boooooooooooooooooring...
Wake up, eat, tv, exercise, comp...
and it goes on and on..

urm mate?
whatever I write here..
is not your concern and you don't have to repeat it nor comment it..
well, just keep it to yourself and whatever..
just ssshhh..

SPM's tommorow,
it's past 12 so it's today..
well good luck to you form 5 peeeps out there..
all the best..
Good luck to you and you, you and urm, you? and maybe you..you there, yea you..and I think you and also the one beside you, yes you..don't look around, it's you..and probably you eventhough I don't really know you and oh ya you!! almost forgotten about you..and urm..I think thats it then..
have a good night sleep!!

*sigh
it's raining...........
any indications?
hidden meaning or something :(

-J²™-

2008-11-09T11:23:00.003-08:00

It's just another day..
well I still thank god for letting me sunshines everyday..
watched final fantasy advent children again..
love that show..btw, what is advent?
hmm..got to look it up..

*sigh
I thought of telling and asking something..
But I'm still so doubtful and hesitate so much..
Felt like letting it go but don't want to..
and that feeling goes on and on and on..
crap..

It's funny when I think back I used to live life for people's sake and satisfaction..
well I'm not doing that anymore..
I've changed..into..a better me?
ah whatever it is I've changed and that's all that matters now..
and if you have any bad intentions to disrupt my life..
If you place of your smelly foot into my life..
and just try to mess up my life..
I can asure you'll get ten times back of what you've done..
I'll make sure you pay..

butbutbut..
I'm not that of a bad person nia..
I'm just a normal kid..and as crazy as you..
ooohhh I can be damn crazy..ask my friends, they know it :P
so you don't have to be afraid to me..but just don't try to mess up my life la kays..
but if you wanna fight I'll sure lose then..cause I'm a a boy with a lil body..real lil and with soft bones..sob..don't beat me up :(

Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
and this is what I'm gonna do now..
kcuf the world..
heeeee XD

-J²™ -

2008-11-08T10:37:00.000-08:00

I've learn a new word..

Genocide-The systematic and planned extermination of an entire national, racial, political, or ethnic group

sounds cool to me :P

*sigh
I suck in life..
my friend was right..
I chose to suck in life..
look at me..so pathetic :(
pathetically craving for Mcflurry and Cadburry and Famous Amous..
*big big sigh

what are you looking at?!

-J²™ -

2008-11-08T09:57:00.000-08:00

Well..thanks to my family, I woke up at 11 today..
Early in the morning already started bickering..
Fill the air with their noise..
I was like going to shout 'cut it out already, darn!!'
gaaa..don't want to get involve..
Alright, bickering are all over..
But I can't sleep already.. grrrrr
darn pissed off...

Well..stucked at home again..
feel so sleepy ~.~
slept at 5 yesterday..can't help it right..I couldn't sleep..
Sis went to Midvalley..thought of asking her to get me some Famous Amous cookies..
My all time favourite..but she couldn't find it :(
no cookies..
actually don't know who bought it few days ago..but I didn't eat..didn't have the mood too..and with the sorethroat too..better not touch it..

*sigh
don't know what's wrong with my family these days..
I'm just starting to hate them :(
suka suka they scold, suka suka they're so polite..
And I'm not the one doing wrong..but still want to push the fault to me..fine..
and then whatever I ask or say..using brains or without brains..
they scold also..well the least is criticize..
I don't even know when's the right time to talk, or ask..darn..
well okay, here's the thing..
you don't get on my nerves, I don't get on your nerves..
is that better?
scram..

I've made up my mind right?
Why bother hesitating again?
*sighsighsigh
my face!! :(

-J²™-

2008-11-07T10:23:00.000-08:00

*sigh
It's been three weeks since PMR..
it's over..and now even school's done..
Been at home since..
Haven't really go out..not totally didn't go out la..but haven't really had the chance to go crazy
especially going out with friends..
those 6 monkeys..always get crazy when I hang out with them..and I like them saying 'today you didn't take medicine ah?' or maybe 'today you take wrong pills is it?'
I think when I get crazy, I'll be craziest among them :P

*big sigh
don't know when can really get to hang out with them..and really get crazy..
but I like to FFK :P
currently planning with Xin to go around KL and take pics..she's planning most of it..no everything I mean..then only inform us..hheeeee XD

I had this ridiculous dream again..not results la..
I dreamt I was free falling..and it wasn't the 1st time..
That feeling was really the falling from the sky and I can really feel it..
and I hit the ground real hard and....died..
whatever it is..I really felt the impact..
It was just a dream..don't think too much okay..
Just tell yourself to think of something better next time..
Maybe you can think of something..like urm..something that would never happen in your life?
heee...xD

guess that's all..
night..
It's already 3..
and I'm still not sleepy :(

don't get yourself thinking too much aite..
wouldn't be good for you if you continue to think of negative stuffs..

-J²™ -

2008-11-07T04:37:00.001-08:00

There's 3 thing I'm craving for now..

But I can only have 1..

so choose WISELY :P

M&M's
Let the melamine melt in your mouth, not in your hands :P

I think they don't sell this anymore..This type I mean

Is this okay?

I like this the most, but too expensive already :(

-J²™ -

2008-11-06T11:03:00.000-08:00

not till you tag..heee..(don't have the emoticon here) :P

sleep eujin, you've gotto sleep,
you've got to jog remember?

2008-11-05T08:00:00.000-08:00

Thought all that I've told myself what to do the next day was going to be forgotten again..
as usual :S
but but but..I was wrong..
I still remember what I told myself..
and guess what, I actually woke up at 6 to go for jogging!!
SURPRISED RIGHT?!! ME TOO!! 1st time since after PMR..wow, am so darn proud of myself :D
But can I be doing this continuously? we'll find out..
and later in the afternoon I sneaked without my fathers notice to play basketball :P
well for only about 2 hours, after that I came back..just in time xD
Hmm..2 hours of jogging..2 hours of basketball,
It'll put me to sleep tonight..I guess :X

I was born to live life, not living life because I was born..
I love this sentence..

-J²™-

2008-11-04T11:24:00.000-08:00

It's now 3.24 and ticking..
I've got myself an answer..
I'm giving it 1 last try..

Sheng, How..I thank you for what you've tell me..
and to another friend that stayed up later than expected to help me..
Thank you all..
She gave me a very good advice..
"Live life the way you want it to be"
I'm gonna remember it :D

I'm not thinking already..
I'm sleeping..now..

-J²™-

2008-11-03T11:15:00.000-08:00

I can't continue to be like that..

especially the tears part..

I'M GONNA BE A SISSY SOONER OR LATER!!

DAMN!! @@

-J²™-

2008-11-03T10:29:00.000-08:00

Have you all ever heard this song?
I think it's kinda old but still sweet as it sounds..
Don't you just hate it when you know what's the meaning of it?

S Club 7- Have You Ever

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go..

-J²™-

2008-11-03T09:50:00.000-08:00

It was way deeper than that..way deeper

*sigh
Think somethings really wrong in me :(
It's happening since then..
Sleepless nights, flashbacks, bad dreams, plus I shed tears every night before I sleep..
and guess wad, only 1 tear rolled down..WHAT DA HECK DOES THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!!!
ROAR!!
god save me :(

I knew I was going get in this condition few months back,
because I've been through it before few years back,
and now I'm really back in this condition..
but this time was way serious..way deeper :(
And the reason I have sleepless nights is because I don't want to close my eyes..
Everytime I close I would see something,and I thought opening it would be better..
That's why I can't sleep
*sigh
I didn't know it would leave such a huge crater, well comparing to the previous 1
gaaa, why do I always to be in this shit?!
I don't like it!! I hate it!!
I wish things would rewind..I wish this would never happen at all in the first place..darn..
I don't know what to do already, I'm out of ideas..
can someone help me? please? heee...:D
and guess wad..I had a dream this morning, a bad dream..
I went to school to check my PMR results..and I found out I only got 2A's and loads of D's
just like what I got for UPSR,well not the D part la..
I was devastated..and I cried badly..
and when I forced myself to wake up..I felt tears in my eyes..I actually did really cried even when I was only dreaming..
bad omen, really bad..things are really bad I guess :(
wonder how I'm going to react if it really happens?
It would be the biggest catastrophe in my entire life..

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
moving on, well, not really moving..but going on, means moving on..
it still freaking mean moving on right?!
see I'm out of my mind, crazy, wacko, lunatic YOU NAME IT!!
I've decided to give myself a second chance in squash,
losing isn't the end of it..
my friend was right, parents was half right,
I should stay strong and don't give up so easily..
I've showed them before when I was young, in a smaller size..
but now I've just grown a lil bigger in size, nothing much..
I've showed them before and I'll show them again..
I'll make their eyes pop out, their jaws grow longer, and their balls touch the ground!!
heeee.... :D
I would like to see that happen..:P
Anyway, this time I really mean it..
but if I really can't make it..then maybe it's time to back off then..

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

-J²™ -

2008-11-02T07:35:00.000-08:00

Thought blogging was to express more on feeling and try to offend people less..
But less wasn't good enough, offended somebody in the previous post..
maybe I was born to offend people :(
But thanks for not asking me to do that embarrassing thing and forgive me..
But still am grateful to get to know both of you, thanks :)
better not mention who again..
who knows if that peep gets angry again and what brilliant idea would go through the head and throw it on me, don't want to take the risk :P
heeeeee :D
Little boy knows his mistakes..

*sigh
Don't know what wrong with me today..
There's only 8 songs that's nice to hear..
The Click Five-Empty
Shane Ward-Breathless
David Archuleta-Crush
Vitamin C-Graduation Song
Jaci Velasquez-Imagine Me Without You
Jesse McCartney-It's Over

including these 2 songs that I heard most the most time,
Boys Like Girls-Thunder
Secondhand Serenade-Fall For You

It's all the emo songs..darn..
It's emo and nice at the same time..arghh..
Why can't I just get over that freaking matter?!
Accept it, you can't change the freaking fact okay..suck it up!!
ROAR!! @@
Just like what ze said, it'll all get better in time..:(

I wasn't being a nanny okay..
I was just being concern thats all :(
Laughing at myself thinking lifes not fair..

-J²™-

2008-11-01T13:58:00.001-07:00

I was hearing songs and I suddenly this song came out that made me liked it the whole day..

Vitamin C-Graduation Song

Look for the lyrics when you hear this song..

It's very meaningful..

Try not to be sad when you all hear this song..

but it made me sad :(

I could recall the day I was in this condition..

2008-11-01T07:43:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps..
Trick or threated yesterday?
If you had celebrated Halloween please be thankful and be lucky, cause not everyone celebrated it including me :(
But I had fun at my class partay..
Loads of fun, water, basketball and BARBEQUE..not to mention about the smoke screen :P
Only manage to get a few pics..

Aunty Yee aka orang utan the Chick Griller!! xD

urm..Peptard the Ancestor of the Tard family is I don't want to say it :X

That's all folks..

-J²™-

2008-10-31T10:17:00.000-07:00

I guess today's a day when everyone becomes sad and emotional..

Over little matters..they can be sad for the next few hours..
I don't know how to say it, my friends are sad..I am sad..practically we're all sad :(
I don't know why..it's just hard to express with words..

Just few hours ago I thought of something..
When I was in the car, my friend's dad was fetching me back home with another friend..
and I looked out the window most of the time..
As the street lamps flashes by, I begin to think of the pass..
I don't want to talk about the pass, but I important thing that I thought was this : why bother giving blank promises when you're not sure whether you can fulfill it
If I could have just thought of this before, the one sitting beside me wouldn't have to suffer..
But it's already the pass..I've got to move on..

Over the years, I've lost many love ones..
Either family, friends or anything..
Through passing away, break-ups, leaving..
I've gone through it many times, and it's not fun at all..it's very saddening and depressing..
I really hope I wouldn't go through all these too many times..if not i may lose my head..:(

Speaking of moving on, there's just one thing that I can't leave behind..and I really can't accept the fact..
*sighsighsighsighsigh :(

btw, thanks for liking the gift :D

-J²™-

2008-10-30T04:54:00.001-07:00

well someone out there is mean enough..

leaving the blog without tagging :(

you're mean, very mean

*sigh

and to all other peeps that were mean too..

you're all mean..:(

-J²™ -

2008-10-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

I've been hearing this song..

I don't know whether it suits you but it certainly suits me..

Brian Mcfadden - Like Only A Woman Can music video

I wasn't perfect

I done a lot of stupid things

Still no angel

I wasn't looking for forgiveness

I wasn't laid up by my pride

Just shocked by her attention

Did someone sign me up for love?

I didn't want it

But now I can't live without it

She changed my life

She cleaned me up

She found my heart

Like only a woman can

She pulls me up

When she knows I'm sad

She knows her man

Like only a woman can

She's kinda perfect

She's kinda everything I'm not

Yes, she's an angel

It's amazing how she's patient

Even more at times I'm not

She's my conscience

But who decided I'd be hers?

I want to hate them

Cause now I can't live without her

She changed my life

She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can

But who decided I'd be hers?

I want to hate them

Cause now I can't live without her

She changed my life
She cleaned me up

She found my heart

Like only a woman can

She pulls me up

When she knows I'm sad

She knows her man

Like only a woman can...

Dedicated to everyone out there, to me...

-J²™ -

2008-10-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

I just don't know what to say right now..
I cannot accept the fact..
It all just seem too soon for me..too quick..too fast..
It's just like last year's thing and now it's ending..:(
What am I gonna do?
I, I just don't know..
My brain's now a blank..plain white..no thoughts, nothing at all..
*sigh

don't cry eujin, it's all gonna be just fine, I'm here :P

-J²™-

2008-10-24T11:54:00.000-07:00

I'm on cloud 9 peeeps..

cloud 9..

unbelievable..

Dreamland here I come..

-J²™-

2008-10-24T11:34:00.000-07:00

Though I'm gonna be fine after a good night sleep..
but it still came back =.=
made me so sick..
curse you!!

Thought that I was just going to live up with tissues the whole day...
but..MIRACLE happened again..xD
ONLINE!! Finally!! O_N_L_I_N_E!! O-N-L-I-N-E!!
This was my first ever chance..
Never had that chance before..
Stomach got pain, hands were cold, thoughts was empty..
Gaaa..forgotten to ask so many things..shit betul..
ROAR!!!!

Going back to Ipoh..not gonna online for like 3 days..
what if miracle happens again when i'm not around?
consider myself unlucky then..

-J²™-

2008-10-23T08:33:00.001-07:00

bad..just bad..

Having flu again..

Why can't it just leave me alone??

gaaaa...

ROAR!!

8 more days to the saddest day of my life..:(

god bless me..

-J²™-

2008-10-22T08:43:00.000-07:00

Anybody watching this show?

Well..I'm in love with it..

it's a very darn nice show..

it's about the power of the 4 ultimate elements..

Earth, Fire, Water, Wind

You should watch it sometimes..

Some says it's kiddy..even from that picture you can actually think so right?

but I would rather say..urm, interesting?

(I don't give a damn of what you think xD )

Well..catch you peeps some other times aite..

Btw, school magazine rocks..

I'M GONNA SO FREAKING FRAME IT UP :P

you can find everything, and I mean everything!!

-J²™-

2008-10-20T23:05:00.000-07:00

your first day of kindergarten was scary,

your last day of middle school made you cry,

the end of high school will blow your mind,

it's all the memories in

between we'll cherish and remember

forever...

-J²™-

2008-10-20T10:18:00.000-07:00

Guess wad?
I've made a deal with sista Yining that will be beneficial for both of us

I wanna learn piano, she wants to learn squash..
I'm good at it, and she's good at that..
So we decided to exchange our 'skills'..

And I bet in no time, she'll be whacking those balls like a pro
and I'll be..urm..maybe pressing those keys like a..pro i guess? xD

well..hope so..
bye peeps..

oh ya..and CAHAYA's out!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!
can't wait to see it xP

-J²™-

2008-10-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

JUST A LITTLE WARNING FER THOSE WHO LIKES TO BUILD SO MUCH ABS

especially sista Yining :P

I kinda failed my arts so..yea xD

BEWARE!!

-J²™-

2008-10-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

Job interview tommorow!!
Wish me luck!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!

-J²™-

2008-10-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday me, Jiun How, Yang Sheng, and da Victor went to play basketball..

It has been ages since I've played basketball..

and since it's after PMR..we played from 8 till 2 almost 3

crazy huh?

I was totally exausted..

Showed them OUG by walking around..

Hungry then eat..hungry then eat..

Then play..then eat..then play..

It's been a long time since I've so much fun..

Well..the other time was at CC and Da MTM!!

woooooooooooooot!!! xD

Still miss it..

Anyway, we've got loads of time now..to go everywhere..

from che cheong gai to buy my dream shirt..;P

to Louyat to buy gadgets...and Sunway to have fun..not to miss out Genting..

Lovin it!!

Have fun lookin at da pics below peeps..

Veins of The Clouds

Zong Lin upside down
Is that me.....? ;PNo doubt, he's good at it

Yeap..darn good
Does it look like an E ?

Chair freeze or sumthin..

Yay!! Jiun How finally succeeded!!
There's him again

Wheeee!!

and there's me!!

.......

Zong Lin!! Yang Sheng nicely snapping there only XD

He's gonna break his neck sooner or later =X

Slumber ass...

*speechless
Jiun How trying hard

The guy beside him ain't me :D

Don't think sideways..He just fell..
SHENG!!
This was the sole of Jiun How's shoes..Pretty huh?
❤

What I ate..

I'm friggin hungry..

Victor's gonna shoot!!

It's going in... not!!! it actually went out

One man show!!

The Three Noobies..
the forth one was the camera holder..xD

This was brought to you by

-J²™-

2008-10-17T11:35:00.000-07:00

Some said this..
Maybe coming soon

=)

Finally it's over..

I just can't believe all I've studied, for about 1 and a half month..just ended within 5 days..

Time flies huh..no doubt

Well..Imma freaking free man now..

But right now I'm just worried about my results..

Will history repeats itself again?

I really hope it won't..

If it really happens, I don't know what more can I do..I could just break down =(

Yay..tomorrow gonna play basketball..

It's been a while since I've touch those balls ;P

ain't those ballsss aite..

Maybe we'll have some pics too xD

Take care peeps..enjoy life

-J²™-

2008-10-11T12:10:00.000-07:00

I have mix feelings right now..

will history ever repeat itself?

I wonder...

*praying hard, this time it's for myself...

-J²™-

2008-10-01T12:05:00.001-07:00

Hey peeeps...

Selamat Hari Raya to all da peeps out there..

Do whatever that makes ya'll happy but loves yerselfs and stay in one piece kay..
LIFE IS PRECIOUS..maybe not to you but it is to others..

And urmm....

I've found out that...
urm...

how to say leh?
urm..
.

.

.

.
I really...
.
.
.
.
CAN'T LIVE WITH PICTURES LEH!!!
BEH TAHAN LA...='(

7x24=?
365x24=?
365, 365, 365, 365......urghh..

-J²™-

2008-09-28T18:54:00.000-07:00

Complications are inevitable..

Agree?

*praying hard

for myself.....and....practically everybody =)

-J²™-

2008-09-27T11:51:00.000-07:00

what if my life was based on this quote..

will it be better?

It's funny how things work out...

From the day I was born,

till now,

I've learned that life has been pre-set by God himself..

What I would go through, how though my life would be,
who will I meet, who will I fall in love with, who will I marry..and if it was on the list..and so on...

so why be angry and be frustrated like the world is gonna end..

Things come and go..

That's why they have this word..
'Every beginning has an ending'

But MISSING something else..
I just couldn't imagine myself in that condition..

what something that has been on your mind for like 1 and a half year..
looking at it everyday..at least twice a day..and suddenly you know it's gonna go..and it's forever..
what the heck you're gonna?
I'll tell the first thing you should do and the rest you figure out yerself..

1st. FEEL dARN GRATEFUL and feel so darn LUCKY that you have at least seen it twice a day okay..not everyone is as lucky as you..

..............................

like I said..
can I live with pictures?
my friend says I'm desperate..
Hell yea I'm freaking desperate..

There's nothing much I can do..
just cross my finger and...pray..
pray with me will you........?

[FATE]
The inevitable events predestined by this force.

-J²™-

2008-09-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

A four-leaf clover..

Believed to bring luck..

You'll need it to get through it..

And I believe you can..

I'll pray a lot..=)

Good luck...

2008-09-11T00:44:00.000-07:00

The Form 4's performing a fashion show
*hillarious

Min Yang & Hui Ru =P

Jiun How & Hui Ru xD

Min Yeen & Jiun How

Me & Hui Ru

Hui Yee & Hui Ru

Me & Sis

Zong Lin & Yan Wai

Me & dearest sis, YiNing

Po Chi & Victor
Peace on u peeps!!

Zong Lin was
watching XXX
when Min Yang
and Victor came
*gotcha =)

No more pics puhleass..

When the lights from heaven shines down..LOL

Me,Zhen Ee & Jiun How

A 'Family' pic of us,
guess who's da wife?xD

The boys and Zhen Ee

2008-08-28T00:13:00.000-07:00

First, I would like to hereby declare that..
PMR IS ONLY FRIGGIN 47 DAYS AWAY!! if I'm not mistaken

*puffs*
Life is hard nowadays..
Home is like hell..
From nagging to grumbles to quarrels to bickers and to never ending..
Last time I would be stabbing the papers with pens and punch the wall as hard as I could..Who cares if it hurts my knuckles or whatever..
Anyway..now I've opened my mind and think positively..
Who cares if they nags or scolds me the whole day..from now on I'm PRETEND to hear what they say..
I have no more feelings for them..I'll just adjust my mood according to the atmosphere..
Eventhough I'm not happy at that time I'll jut have to pretend that I am..

I really don't have feelings for them already..
*sigh
A friend of mine says she understands how I feel..
And asked me not to bother what people say..
Maybe this PMR examination really changed me a lot..
Made me feel the pressure and toughness of life just to achieve a result that's satisfying..
Sometimes I just feel that I'm sitting this just to pleased people around me..you can say that I'm stupid or what for thinking like that..I DON'T GIVE A DAMN..but I know the results I get would determine my future and I'll hold it forever and even into my grave..

Well..fine..I'll just push a lil more throughout this 48 days..
I've suffered months already..why not push a lil more?
Taste the bitterness before sweet..
Can I make it through?
Depends..but I think I would..with around still..I believe I can..

Alright..now the happy section..too much sadness would be depressing rite? yea..
Birthday had just passed..
I'm very grateful and thank my friends a million for the celebration and wishes..
Although only a small 1..I still thank you all..
I personally seriously didn't know that I had so many friends..
well..I can tell you that friends can be the no.1 in my heart most of the times..
They could do stuffs that your family don't..
Almost all the time I have a heart to heart talk to them but not with my family because I feel that they understands more..

Anyway..I had a great birthday..
wished for loads of stuffs before I slept..don't really know that will it be done but there's no harm believing rite?
'There can be miracle when you believe'..

Urm..oh ya..and before that was the Majlis Temu Mesra..
Darn..it was a bomb..
Despite getting scoldings from parents (as usual) that I'm not allowed to go out (I'm a prisoner) because exam is near (study study study is all they know) and I had to make a story out of it..it's a long story anyway..
I, Zong Lin and Jiun How went to CC before it..
I've never been so joyful for a long time already..
And then rushed to the majlis..practically late because wouldn't want to leave the game..payback =X

Went there and saw loads of peeps..didn't know we have to register and got scolding by the SMELLY AND UGL* new ketua..
The ex was better ;P duh..???
Began with(shit, forgotten the names pula =S)..skip that la..then performance by peeps and fashion show by the new AJK's..
*speechless about it..

It was just awesome la..
Took pics..that's the main thing that made me HAPPY~~
Gathering all the pics..will upload it in the next post..

Btw, GET WELL SOON SHENG!!

*TO BE CONTINUED*

-J²™-

2008-07-06T10:38:00.002-07:00

JAPANESE
世界で最もリモート生と死の距離ではないが、私スタンドする前に知っている必要はありません愛してる

SPANISH
El mundo más remota distancia entre la vida y la muerte, pero yo ante ustedes no saben que Te quiero

KOREAN
세계의 대부분의 원격 거리를 삶과 죽음,이 저는 여러분 앞에 사랑하는 당신은 모르겠지만

ITALIAN
Di tutto il mondo più remote distanza tra la vita e la morte, è che davanti a lei, ma non sai che ti amo

GERMAN
Die weltweit am weitesten entfernten Abstand zwischen Leben und Tod, ist, dass ich vor Ihnen, aber Sie wissen nicht, dass ich liebe dich

FRENCH
Le monde les plus reculées distance entre la vie et la mort, c'est que je m'adresse à vous, mais vous ne savez pas que Je t'aime

Had been waiting from that time to come..
and it did..
but I freaking missed it..
what a screwed up fakar..ROAR!!!

2008-07-06T10:38:00.001-07:00

Look, even cookie monster says that..
*puffs
sometimes I would like to say that to the world..
especially my mum..
She can be nice, and she can be a real freaking-piss-you-off person..
She nags and tells me stuffs like over and over and over again..
Until you like

'okay, I promise'
'okay, I swear'
and she stops..
she could return ya know..
I use to like the sat's and sun's
It's like heaven..no school..nothing..
but that was the good o days..
Now..
She starts to scold and nag even when I'm sleeping..
what the fuck?!!!
It's fucking annoying..
and even when I go down for breakfast or lunch or dinner..
halfway she would start again..
and it really fucking pisses me off..
How I wish I could tell her off..but I can't..she my mum

And there's the other side of me..
seriously..
I had develope this vengeance in me..
cause everytime after she scolds I would just tell myself to hang on..
after that i would just take a pen and slash through the papers..
I feel like just stabbing someone..
to relase my anger..
and duh..stabbing someone and getting yourself shoved into prison..
what's the fucking point..

Haih..
I just fucking hate myself..Hate my fucking life..
What's the point of living such a life..
Wonder why was I even born..
To suffer these fucking shits? To take all the scoldings and naggings?!!
what if I was blind or deaf, would the world be a better place?
being deaf, hearing voices and sounds no more
being blind, seeing no one..
but it would be a great loss cause I will not see again..

oh ya, according to my parents..
NO MORE STAYING BACK AT SCHOOL
hellooo, don't you know that I would rather stay in school wholeday than coming back home???
Home is like becoming hell to me..
fuck them la....diu
To my grandma up in heaven,

please guide me through life,
I don't know how much I could hang on anymore,
will this vengeance in my heart grow stronger and bigger?
I don't want it to take over me..

Why did you leave popo, I miss you so much..
take care of yourself up there.

- J²™ -

2008-07-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

Always wanted to update but in the end changed my mind..
Either because I'm too damn lazy too..
or there's no time..
or for some reasons..

Nah..
Getting bored of life..
Work, work and work every single day..
If it's not project then it's something else..
ROAR!!!!
PMR is like 3 months away and trials in 1 month..
damn..
in a blink of eye and it's like July =.=

Anyway..
still trying to live on..
"Don't go the way life takes you.
Take the life the way you go.
And remember you are born to live
and not living life because you are born."

By the way..
starting to love the Science and Maths club aka SM xD
Things are starting to get gore and bloody
did I even mention we're starting to disect frogs..woot!!
The first time I was a lil nervous with all the weird feelings and palms shaking..
But then after I had warmed up I got excited and..(you wouldn't want to know more) let's just say it so called 'REST IN PEACE'
And with the presence of it even get more fun..kekeke..
well, that kinda the only day I could really get close to..

YESH!!
gonna stop squash after the last tournament until PMR's done for good..

I'll take their advices..
I'll put down your picture..
Memories of cold..
Take it off and let it drop..
You're through..
Don't worry..
Be happy..
Cause every lil thing..
Is gonna be alright..

ALL HAIL J² !!!

2008-06-21T05:11:00.001-07:00

- Mariah Carey Lyrics

2008-06-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

The following sentences may seem quite familiar..

I am nothing special; of this i am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but i've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.
The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away. And no matter what you do, she or he will stay with you forever.

I wish i could give you what you're looking for, but i don't know what it is. There's a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It's as if i'm not the one you're really with. Your mind is on someone else.

Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and i doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

Alright alright..
I admit it..
I copied it from PeiJin's blog..
xD sorry PeiJin, I couldn't resist it..
Forgive me =)

2008-06-18T02:23:00.000-07:00

Route to eternal happiness

I'M HAPPY
I LOVE MY LIFE
I HAVE EVERYTHING
AND EVERYONE I NEED
THINGS WILL ONLY GET BETTER
.
.
.
AND BETTER
.
.
.
AND BETTER

I got over you...
(J²™)

2008-06-09T09:32:00.000-07:00

First of all..I'd like to say..

Maria Sharapova is a drop-dead gorgeous sizzling hawty.. *pssszz xD

And yeah, guess what..

She's like way taller than me..180 m!!! opss..correction..I mean 180 cm..left out the c (makes a whole lot of difference)..

I think a head above me..gawd..

who cares..she's hawt..haha xD

By the way...

Maybe my time of worrying to much is gonna soon..

When that time comes..

It'll be off my back..

It's too darn heavy for me to carry it anymore..

That 'burden' (that isn't really the word but it still fits in) will soon be others..

I'll wish that person good luck..xD

Peace brother..v '_'

2008-06-03T11:52:00.002-07:00

What have I done?!

But I guess I deserve it..

I take the punishment willingly..

But whatever it is..

Thanks for everything..=)

All the past months...

Well,

Life is all about movements and changes,

so it's unfortunate to us if we had to leave somethings behind.

2008-06-03T11:52:00.001-07:00

Like my new header?
Inspired by my friends..they always say it and makes me feel..urm..happy I guess..lol..
NICE?
NOT NICE?
Well, frankly...
I DON'T REALLY OR EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOUR OPINION xD
Cause me myself love it and it's enough..
Lol..sorry for the craps..maybe it's the doing of the lacking of sleep..

2008-05-30T08:10:00.000-07:00

Depressed..........

Another year of Milo All Star has gone..
*puff* and it ended just like that..5 days was like 1..
well..again..had winnings and losings..
Almost won a guy that before a match I thought I was gonna be trashed nicely, but..it turned out to be a hell of a match and I gave him my whole and almost won..
I was darn satisfied with it and enjoyed the match..
And then the next day I played like a DONKEY!! And lost to whom I must never lose too..but still did..
Haiz..

Sometimes I just so sick of squash..
I just kept on losing nowadays..
Darn..
And dad just like spend a fortune on stuffs like
Sole padding (x2)- RM322 around that
Shoes- RM 120
Everything adds up to like 422 bucks..

At first I didn't want to tell him about the shoes had worn out but he found out eventually..
Now I feel so damn fucking bad, had been losing and he keeep on spending..
what's the freaking point of it man..
damn..

2008-05-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

Those days you open the papers and flip it multiple times and start asking
" don't those reporters have anything to write about other than politic shits like Lingam which is so so darn boring"
Nothing catches your eyes other than the tv section =)

But nowadays something more finally catches your eyes..
The disastrous cyclone Nargis that swept across Myanmar and an earthquake with a of magnitude-7.9 measuring Ritcher scale. These two adding together the total number of casualties with rise as much as 50,000 and there are still others that are buried and mising and with another new earthquake that happened yesterday..I couldn't imagine.

It was as if the hands of god was at work. How would the survivors get through this? Which will we donate nore to? And speaking of the donations, would ALL the money go ONLY towards the relief centre and ONLY them? Had you all ever thought of that.. I hope poeple wouldn't gobble them up and send peanuts to them..

Anyway, we should just be so darn thankful that there are no disaster happening here..but if there were in the near future (ya noe all the global warming and stuffs happening around now) , will we be prepared?

Now about school,
Exam marks are OK, that's what i always tell my parents from young, and when I'll give them some sort of shocking when I really show them..

And why the heck all the good teachers have to always leave us?
Our chinese teacher Pn. Chan is not teaching form 3 anymore and bm teacher is retiring..
Haih..guess our class will be so missing them..begged pn.chan to stay but couldn't really stop it cause of the the teachers timetable and stuffs..
Took class pic with teachers but I don't have them with me now..

Conclusion..it's just all the sad things happening around now..
But don't worry..good things always happen too..
I finally got the phone call and finally got what I wanted for like ages..woot!! xD

And remember..
DO ALWAYS BELIEVE IN MIRACLES..IT SERIOUSlY WORKS..
(formebutIdon'tknowforyoubutthere'snoharmbelieving)