Have you all ever heard this song?
I think it's kinda old but still sweet as it sounds..
Don't you just hate it when you know what's the meaning of it?

S Club 7- Have You Ever

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go..

-J²™-

It was way deeper than that..way deeper

*sigh
Think somethings really wrong in me :(
It's happening since then..
Sleepless nights, flashbacks, bad dreams, plus I shed tears every night before I sleep..
and guess wad, only 1 tear rolled down..WHAT DA HECK DOES THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!!!
ROAR!!
god save me :(

I knew I was going get in this condition few months back,
because I've been through it before few years back,
and now I'm really back in this condition..
but this time was way serious..way deeper :(
And the reason I have sleepless nights is because I don't want to close my eyes..
Everytime I close I would see something,and I thought opening it would be better..
That's why I can't sleep
*sigh
I didn't know it would leave such a huge crater, well comparing to the previous 1
gaaa, why do I always to be in this shit?!
I don't like it!! I hate it!!
I wish things would rewind..I wish this would never happen at all in the first place..darn..
I don't know what to do already, I'm out of ideas..
can someone help me? please? heee...:D
and guess wad..I had a dream this morning, a bad dream..
I went to school to check my PMR results..and I found out I only got 2A's and loads of D's
just like what I got for UPSR,well not the D part la..
I was devastated..and I cried badly..
and when I forced myself to wake up..I felt tears in my eyes..I actually did really cried even when I was only dreaming..
bad omen, really bad..things are really bad I guess :(
wonder how I'm going to react if it really happens?
It would be the biggest catastrophe in my entire life..

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moving on, well, not really moving..but going on, means moving on..
it still freaking mean moving on right?!
see I'm out of my mind, crazy, wacko, lunatic YOU NAME IT!!
I've decided to give myself a second chance in squash,
losing isn't the end of it..
my friend was right, parents was half right,
I should stay strong and don't give up so easily..
I've showed them before when I was young, in a smaller size..
but now I've just grown a lil bigger in size, nothing much..
I've showed them before and I'll show them again..
I'll make their eyes pop out, their jaws grow longer, and their balls touch the ground!!
heeee.... :D
I would like to see that happen..:P
Anyway, this time I really mean it..
but if I really can't make it..then maybe it's time to back off then..


Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

-J²™ -

Thought blogging was to express more on feeling and try to offend people less..
But less wasn't good enough, offended somebody in the previous post..
maybe I was born to offend people :(
But thanks for not asking me to do that embarrassing thing and forgive me..
But still am grateful to get to know both of you, thanks :)
better not mention who again..
who knows if that peep gets angry again and what brilliant idea would go through the head and throw it on me, don't want to take the risk :P
heeeeee :D
Little boy knows his mistakes..


*sigh
Don't know what wrong with me today..
There's only 8 songs that's nice to hear..
The Click Five-Empty
Shane Ward-Breathless
David Archuleta-Crush
Vitamin C-Graduation Song
Jaci Velasquez-Imagine Me Without You
Jesse McCartney-It's Over

including these 2 songs that I heard most the most time,
Boys Like Girls-Thunder
Secondhand Serenade-Fall For You

It's all the emo songs..darn..
It's emo and nice at the same time..arghh..
Why can't I just get over that freaking matter?!
Accept it, you can't change the freaking fact okay..suck it up!!
ROAR!! @@
Just like what ze said, it'll all get better in time..:(


I wasn't being a nanny okay..
I was just being concern thats all :(
Laughing at myself thinking lifes not fair..

-J²™-

I was hearing songs and I suddenly this song came out that made me liked it the whole day..

Vitamin C-Graduation Song

Look for the lyrics when you hear this song..

It's very meaningful..

Try not to be sad when you all hear this song..

but it made me sad :(

I could recall the day I was in this condition..

Hey peeps..
Trick or threated yesterday?
If you had celebrated Halloween please be thankful and be lucky, cause not everyone celebrated it including me :(
But I had fun at my class partay..
Loads of fun, water, basketball and BARBEQUE..not to mention about the smoke screen :P
Only manage to get a few pics..

Aunty Yee aka orang utan the Chick Griller!! xD

urm..Peptard the Ancestor of the Tard family is I don't want to say it :X

That's all folks..

-J²™-

I guess today's a day when everyone becomes sad and emotional..

Over little matters..they can be sad for the next few hours..
I don't know how to say it, my friends are sad..I am sad..practically we're all sad :(
I don't know why..it's just hard to express with words..



Just few hours ago I thought of something..
When I was in the car, my friend's dad was fetching me back home with another friend..
and I looked out the window most of the time..
As the street lamps flashes by, I begin to think of the pass..
I don't want to talk about the pass, but I important thing that I thought was this : why bother giving blank promises when you're not sure whether you can fulfill it
If I could have just thought of this before, the one sitting beside me wouldn't have to suffer..
But it's already the pass..I've got to move on..



Over the years, I've lost many love ones..
Either family, friends or anything..
Through passing away, break-ups, leaving..
I've gone through it many times, and it's not fun at all..it's very saddening and depressing..
I really hope I wouldn't go through all these too many times..if not i may lose my head..:(


Speaking of moving on, there's just one thing that I can't leave behind..and I really can't accept the fact..
*sighsighsighsighsigh :(



btw, thanks for liking the gift :D

-J²™-

well someone out there is mean enough..

leaving the blog without tagging :(

you're mean, very mean

*sigh

and to all other peeps that were mean too..

:(

you're all mean..:(

-J²™ -