First, I would like to hereby declare that..
PMR IS ONLY FRIGGIN 47 DAYS AWAY!! if I'm not mistaken

*puffs*
Life is hard nowadays..
Home is like hell..
From nagging to grumbles to quarrels to bickers and to never ending..
Last time I would be stabbing the papers with pens and punch the wall as hard as I could..Who cares if it hurts my knuckles or whatever..
Anyway..now I've opened my mind and think positively..
Who cares if they nags or scolds me the whole day..from now on I'm PRETEND to hear what they say..
I have no more feelings for them..I'll just adjust my mood according to the atmosphere..
Eventhough I'm not happy at that time I'll jut have to pretend that I am..

I really don't have feelings for them already..
*sigh
A friend of mine says she understands how I feel..
And asked me not to bother what people say..
Maybe this PMR examination really changed me a lot..
Made me feel the pressure and toughness of life just to achieve a result that's satisfying..
Sometimes I just feel that I'm sitting this just to pleased people around me..you can say that I'm stupid or what for thinking like that..I DON'T GIVE A DAMN..but I know the results I get would determine my future and I'll hold it forever and even into my grave..

Well..fine..I'll just push a lil more throughout this 48 days..
I've suffered months already..why not push a lil more?
Taste the bitterness before sweet..
Can I make it through?
Depends..but I think I would..with around still..I believe I can..

Alright..now the happy section..too much sadness would be depressing rite? yea..
Birthday had just passed..
I'm very grateful and thank my friends a million for the celebration and wishes..
Although only a small 1..I still thank you all..
I personally seriously didn't know that I had so many friends..
well..I can tell you that friends can be the no.1 in my heart most of the times..
They could do stuffs that your family don't..
Almost all the time I have a heart to heart talk to them but not with my family because I feel that they understands more..

Anyway..I had a great birthday..
wished for loads of stuffs before I slept..don't really know that will it be done but there's no harm believing rite?
'There can be miracle when you believe'..

Urm..oh ya..and before that was the Majlis Temu Mesra..
Darn..it was a bomb..
Despite getting scoldings from parents (as usual) that I'm not allowed to go out (I'm a prisoner) because exam is near (study study study is all they know) and I had to make a story out of it..it's a long story anyway..
I, Zong Lin and Jiun How went to CC before it..
I've never been so joyful for a long time already..
And then rushed to the majlis..practically late because wouldn't want to leave the game..payback =X

Went there and saw loads of peeps..didn't know we have to register and got scolding by the SMELLY AND UGL* new ketua..
The ex was better ;P duh..???
Began with(shit, forgotten the names pula =S)..skip that la..then performance by peeps and fashion show by the new AJK's..
*speechless about it..

It was just awesome la..
Took pics..that's the main thing that made me HAPPY~~
Gathering all the pics..will upload it in the next post..

Btw, GET WELL SOON SHENG!!

*TO BE CONTINUED*

-J²™-

JAPANESE
世界で最もリモート生と死の距離ではないが、私スタンドする前に知っている必要はありません愛してる

SPANISH
El mundo más remota distancia entre la vida y la muerte, pero yo ante ustedes no saben que Te quiero

KOREAN
세계의 대부분의 원격 거리를 삶과 죽음,이 저는 여러분 앞에 사랑하는 당신은 모르겠지만

ITALIAN
Di tutto il mondo più remote distanza tra la vita e la morte, è che davanti a lei, ma non sai che ti amo

GERMAN
Die weltweit am weitesten entfernten Abstand zwischen Leben und Tod, ist, dass ich vor Ihnen, aber Sie wissen nicht, dass ich liebe dich

FRENCH
Le monde les plus reculées distance entre la vie et la mort, c'est que je m'adresse à vous, mais vous ne savez pas que Je t'aime

Had been waiting from that time to come..
and it did..
but I freaking missed it..
what a screwed up fakar..ROAR!!!

Look, even cookie monster says that..
*puffs
sometimes I would like to say that to the world..
especially my mum..
She can be nice, and she can be a real freaking-piss-you-off person..
She nags and tells me stuffs like over and over and over again..
Until you like

'okay, I promise'
'okay, I swear'
and she stops..
she could return ya know..
I use to like the sat's and sun's
It's like heaven..no school..nothing..
but that was the good o days..
Now..
She starts to scold and nag even when I'm sleeping..
what the fuck?!!!
It's fucking annoying..
and even when I go down for breakfast or lunch or dinner..
halfway she would start again..
and it really fucking pisses me off..
How I wish I could tell her off..but I can't..she my mum

And there's the other side of me..
seriously..
I had develope this vengeance in me..
cause everytime after she scolds I would just tell myself to hang on..
after that i would just take a pen and slash through the papers..
I feel like just stabbing someone..
to relase my anger..
and duh..stabbing someone and getting yourself shoved into prison..
what's the fucking point..

Haih..
I just fucking hate myself..Hate my fucking life..
What's the point of living such a life..
Wonder why was I even born..
To suffer these fucking shits? To take all the scoldings and naggings?!!
what if I was blind or deaf, would the world be a better place?
being deaf, hearing voices and sounds no more
being blind, seeing no one..
but it would be a great loss cause I will not see again..

oh ya, according to my parents..
NO MORE STAYING BACK AT SCHOOL
hellooo, don't you know that I would rather stay in school wholeday than coming back home???
Home is like becoming hell to me..
fuck them la....diu
To my grandma up in heaven,

please guide me through life,
I don't know how much I could hang on anymore,
will this vengeance in my heart grow stronger and bigger?
I don't want it to take over me..

Why did you leave popo, I miss you so much..
take care of yourself up there.

- J²™ -

Always wanted to update but in the end changed my mind..
Either because I'm too damn lazy too..
or there's no time..
or for some reasons..

Nah..
Getting bored of life..
Work, work and work every single day..
If it's not project then it's something else..
ROAR!!!!
PMR is like 3 months away and trials in 1 month..
damn..
in a blink of eye and it's like July =.=

Anyway..
still trying to live on..
"Don't go the way life takes you.
Take the life the way you go.
And remember you are born to live
and not living life because you are born."

By the way..
starting to love the Science and Maths club aka SM xD
Things are starting to get gore and bloody
did I even mention we're starting to disect frogs..woot!!
The first time I was a lil nervous with all the weird feelings and palms shaking..
But then after I had warmed up I got excited and..(you wouldn't want to know more) let's just say it so called 'REST IN PEACE'
And with the presence of it even get more fun..kekeke..
well, that kinda the only day I could really get close to..

YESH!!
gonna stop squash after the last tournament until PMR's done for good..

I'll take their advices..
I'll put down your picture..
Memories of cold..
Take it off and let it drop..
You're through..
Don't worry..
Be happy..
Cause every lil thing..
Is gonna be alright..

ALL HAIL J² !!!

- Mariah Carey Lyrics

The following sentences may seem quite familiar..

• I am nothing special; of this i am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but i've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.
  The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away. And no matter what you do, she or he will stay with you forever.

• I wish i could give you what you're looking for, but i don't know what it is. There's a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It's as if i'm not the one you're really with. Your mind is on someone else.

• Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and i doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

• The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

Alright alright..
I admit it..
I copied it from PeiJin's blog..
xD sorry PeiJin, I couldn't resist it..
Forgive me =)

Route to eternal happiness

I'M HAPPY
I LOVE MY LIFE
I HAVE EVERYTHING
AND EVERYONE I NEED
THINGS WILL ONLY GET BETTER
.
.
.
AND BETTER
.
.
.
AND BETTER

I got over you...
(J²™)