Thursday 28 August 2008

First, I would like to hereby declare that..
PMR IS ONLY FRIGGIN 47 DAYS AWAY!! if I'm not mistaken

*puffs*
Life is hard nowadays..
Home is like hell..
From nagging to grumbles to quarrels to bickers and to never ending..
Last time I would be stabbing the papers with pens and punch the wall as hard as I could..Who cares if it hurts my knuckles or whatever..
Anyway..now I've opened my mind and think positively..
Who cares if they nags or scolds me the whole day..from now on I'm PRETEND to hear what they say..
I have no more feelings for them..I'll just adjust my mood according to the atmosphere..
Eventhough I'm not happy at that time I'll jut have to pretend that I am..

I really don't have feelings for them already..
*sigh
A friend of mine says she understands how I feel..
And asked me not to bother what people say..
Maybe this PMR examination really changed me a lot..
Made me feel the pressure and toughness of life just to achieve a result that's satisfying..
Sometimes I just feel that I'm sitting this just to pleased people around me..you can say that I'm stupid or what for thinking like that..I DON'T GIVE A DAMN..but I know the results I get would determine my future and I'll hold it forever and even into my grave..

Well..fine..I'll just push a lil more throughout this 48 days..
I've suffered months already..why not push a lil more?
Taste the bitterness before sweet..
Can I make it through?
Depends..but I think I would..with around still..I believe I can..

Alright..now the happy section..too much sadness would be depressing rite? yea..
Birthday had just passed..
I'm very grateful and thank my friends a million for the celebration and wishes..
Although only a small 1..I still thank you all..
I personally seriously didn't know that I had so many friends..
well..I can tell you that friends can be the no.1 in my heart most of the times..
They could do stuffs that your family don't..
Almost all the time I have a heart to heart talk to them but not with my family because I feel that they understands more..

Anyway..I had a great birthday..
wished for loads of stuffs before I slept..don't really know that will it be done but there's no harm believing rite?
'There can be miracle when you believe'..

Urm..oh ya..and before that was the Majlis Temu Mesra..
Darn..it was a bomb..
Despite getting scoldings from parents (as usual) that I'm not allowed to go out (I'm a prisoner) because exam is near (study study study is all they know) and I had to make a story out of it..it's a long story anyway..
I, Zong Lin and Jiun How went to CC before it..
I've never been so joyful for a long time already..
And then rushed to the majlis..practically late because wouldn't want to leave the game..payback =X

Went there and saw loads of peeps..didn't know we have to register and got scolding by the SMELLY AND UGL* new ketua..
The ex was better ;P duh..???
Began with(shit, forgotten the names pula =S)..skip that la..then performance by peeps and fashion show by the new AJK's..
*speechless about it..

It was just awesome la..
Took pics..that's the main thing that made me HAPPY~~
Gathering all the pics..will upload it in the next post..

Btw, GET WELL SOON SHENG!!

*TO BE CONTINUED*



-J²™-