Look, even cookie monster says that..
*puffs
sometimes I would like to say that to the world..
especially my mum..
She can be nice, and she can be a real freaking-piss-you-off person..
She nags and tells me stuffs like over and over and over again..
Until you like

'okay, I promise'
'okay, I swear'
and she stops..
she could return ya know..
I use to like the sat's and sun's
It's like heaven..no school..nothing..
but that was the good o days..
Now..
She starts to scold and nag even when I'm sleeping..
what the fuck?!!!
It's fucking annoying..
and even when I go down for breakfast or lunch or dinner..
halfway she would start again..
and it really fucking pisses me off..
How I wish I could tell her off..but I can't..she my mum

And there's the other side of me..
seriously..
I had develope this vengeance in me..
cause everytime after she scolds I would just tell myself to hang on..
after that i would just take a pen and slash through the papers..
I feel like just stabbing someone..
to relase my anger..
and duh..stabbing someone and getting yourself shoved into prison..
what's the fucking point..

Haih..
I just fucking hate myself..Hate my fucking life..
What's the point of living such a life..
Wonder why was I even born..
To suffer these fucking shits? To take all the scoldings and naggings?!!
what if I was blind or deaf, would the world be a better place?
being deaf, hearing voices and sounds no more
being blind, seeing no one..
but it would be a great loss cause I will not see again..

oh ya, according to my parents..
NO MORE STAYING BACK AT SCHOOL
hellooo, don't you know that I would rather stay in school wholeday than coming back home???
Home is like becoming hell to me..
fuck them la....diu
To my grandma up in heaven,

please guide me through life,
I don't know how much I could hang on anymore,
will this vengeance in my heart grow stronger and bigger?
I don't want it to take over me..

Why did you leave popo, I miss you so much..
take care of yourself up there.

- J²™ -