The Rockefeller Center Christmas Tree in New York
Ain't it pretty??
Christmas is like being celebrated so so so I forgotten the word..
what's Malaysia doing?? ishh..

I had this funny dream last night..
I dreamed I was in New York,
what a dream...

I would just like to have a dog there..
and jog with it everyday in Central Park or Madison Square Garden..
and stare at the sky waiting for the meteor seasons to come..
:D


I'mma smally boy with big dreams aite :)

Me am so waiting for this show..
It look so cool and there's Keanu Reeves acting in it!!
Saw the trailer..it's so darn cool!!
Cool effects and everything and there's leng zai to see also..
2 in 1!!
waiting patiently..


aren't girls/boys with blue eyes the prettiest thing on earth..
they're so lucky..

-J²™-

Here's my update la Sheng!
I suddenly remembered this poem showed to us during tuition in Kasturi..
It's damn funny and will be lil bit naughty if you don't think straight :P


My First Time

The sky was dark
All alone Just her and I.

Her hair so soft Her eyes so blue
I knew just what She wanted to do.

Her skin so soft Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers Down her spine.

I didn't know how But I tried my best
To place my hand On her breasts.

I remember my fear My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread Her legs apart.

And when she did it I felt no shame
All at once The white stuff came.

At last it's finished It's all over now
My first time........








Milking a cow!!!


(I bet you were not thinking straight! :D )

-J²™-

Me found this great song from youtube..
This song is about an 18 year old girl who was about to get married. Her fiance was in the military, fighting war, and just before the wedding, he was killed.
I guess it's a tribute to the late American soldiers..
but I don't know why I just can't stop loving it :)

Carrie Underwood- Just A Dream


It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white, going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
A sixpence in her shoe, something borrowed, something blue

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down, trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up
And sang the saddest song that she ever heard

Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh and what could have been
And then the guards rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream


live as if you'll die tomorrow.
dream as if you'll live forever.
*still and always praying hard..

-J²™-

It's been raining for days already, and once start will last for hours..
it's nice but not that nice for the low lying areas..
they're gonna go through a hell of a time..
and what's wrong with the world nowadays..
can't we homo sapiens be a bit more civilised or something?
you bomb me I bomb you (Mumbai),
you don't make new elections and step down I'm gonna protest like shit! ( Thailand)
Malays can't perform yoga, haram (Malaysia)
and lots more, and to those Somalians, stop freaking hijacking people's vessels la..go build your own 1 la dumb dumb!
ishh, can't freaking stand them..

btw have you all ever go and see those feng shui master??
mummy went and deal with this feng shui fella for somethings, work..and then ask him about each of our feng shui stuffs..
and this is what he said about me..
urm..a thinker (which everybody doubts including me, highly) and ok in studies..gonna get very distracted next year, everything also want to learn things, but don't know really know what, so he told my mum to watch me closely..
and very bad tempered boy but keeps everything to himself..and when he let's it out it's gonna be huge..(this 1 is freaking true wey! but don't know about the letting out part :P )
and then I have lots of helps from some spirit life form..I don't know how to say in english..in cantonese they call it 'guai yan'..
and then 40 years of good life..he said to my mum that this boy is very lucky..muahahaha..

I guess everything is quite true..
but some is still doubtful..
but really never thought that someone could actually tell that I keep everything to myself..he must be a great guy :)

till here I guess..


hope. dream. imagine.

-J²™-

Went to Mid Valley yesterday with normal 6 buddies..
Ate Mcdonalds for luch,
and I tell you those McShakers (I guess that's what they call them) are so darn salty,
I don't know how my friends are able to finish the whole packet..yuck!
I'm better off with the normal ones..
Then watch Madagascar 2, not too bad..
Hilarious, entertaining at least...

and then on my phone,
and it vibrated..6 miscalls from an unknown number
I thought who the heck was that, and as usual I didn't care about it..
and then that fella called, I picked up..
me: hello?
She: hello? hello ini siapa?
me: (I was like what? a Malay fella?)...
She: then she quickly ask again, Apa you mau?! (angrily)
then I just cut the line..must be a wrong number I guess..
Then few minutes after that she sent a SMS saying about what bank stuffs and craps..
I didn't want to care much still..hope she just leaves me alone..

We continued the day by walking around The Gardens..
I can tell that place isn't the place for me to walk about..
It'll be very harmful to my wallet :P

Well, the day was okay..
Came back home and had a headache..darn..
I regreted playing the arcade..it was such a waste of money..
should have rather played bowling..
eii xuan, next time we'll play okay..
don't care about the others..muahahaha..
I'd spend money on that rather than the arcade..
heeeeee XD



Gems may be presious, but friends are priceless

-J²™-

JUST IGNORE THIS POST

To all you fing humans out there..
I wasn't born to owe you fing people,
so get that in your fing thick brain..
I've made a mistake ONCE,
and offended peoples..
I know my mistakes..
and I'll promise to make it up by doing something right,
and it'll satisfy you,
and whether it satisfies I don't know and I don't give a fing damn..
cause I know I've done something right to cover up my mistakes..
but also get that in your fing think brain that the mistakes I've made doesn't give you the privilege to use that against me for my whole life on any occasion to like make me feel guilty or whatsoever,
because after I cover my up my mistakes I don't feel fing guilty..

Doesn't mean that I always be polite and laugh around to you people and you would always think 'ahh this boy wouldn't get angry, he's a very open minded 1, won't be upset about anything'
I being nice and polite to you because I'm don't want to offend you and make you angry which I don't fing like to..
but everyone has their limits okay, and I bet not a lot of you people has ever seen me getting angry..you wouldn't like it..I'm not gonna be me when I get angry..

arrghh,
what another retarded post..
and of course this wasn't wrote to offend anybody..
:)

-J²™-

*sigh sigh sigh
Lended a ear to a friend just now..
she has many problems..
more than me I think..but since saying out makes her feel better..
so just listen a bit lo..no harm right?
I guess...........

*sigh
you can do it larh kay..
you're just going through a serious metamorphosis..
you'll get through it la kay..
everybody goes through it..
well, I guess again..
but once you come out of it..
you'll be a better person..
I guess.........

and thanks Xin for the notes..
I don't know whether it's guitar or piano cause after Jiun How the pro verified it..
he said it was for classical guitar but can use for piano also..he thinks...
but still thank you..

geee..
I suddenly thought what are the wonders of the world..
well of course my own opinion la..
hmm...
guess I'll figure it out before I go to sleep..
yea..I'll do that :)

congratulations Jiun How,
you finally blogged..
*BIG HUG HUG HUGS TO YOU!! :D


I'll give the world to see you once again..
just once? please?
heeeeeeeeeeeee XD

-J²™-

darn..
I have the most lovely family and the most irritating, noisy, only-know-to-scream family..
everyday only know how to scream, scold and shout and whatever..
just so irritating..
then out of the blue will treat you nicely 1 oh..
memang xiao..
I just can't take it anymore..

ahhh..
I want to learn piano!!
anyone have the Fall For You notes?
I can't find it!!
darn darn darn crap crap crap!!

-J²™-

gawd, it's been 2 days already since I had a good night sleep..
I'm not thinking of anything..darn..
I hope tonight I'll get a good sleep..
*praying hard!!

Went for basketball again..
Guess who we saw at the courts..
Sri Sentosa Form 5's..
They're having SPM and they're PLAYING BASKETBALL!!
Yes they're not in the science stream class and have an off today but shouldn't they be studying at home?
I don't know whether to envy them or whatever..
but no doubt they're basketball skills are darn goooooooood!!
is getting a stomach ache when I play basketball evitable or what?
I always get it! crap!

Since I can't sleep I decided to wake up at 6 and play the comp :P
I watched a video..a seriously retarded video about a German kid..
Enjoy it :D

Angry German Kid


and the last thing..
Happy Birthday to Daddy and PoPo..
ate at Ru Ee restaurant to celebrate daddy's birthday..
and for Popo's birthday..
I bet she's having a wonderful celebration up there..
take care Poly, I'll always miss you


Being left by someone that you love most and also loves you is dejecting,
but knowing she's leaving and is going to a better place is comforting too :)

*still praying very hard,
for myself and adding a few friends in :D

-J²™-

That day will come to you,
It'll be over soon,
and I know you're gonna be fine...
you're gonna be just fine :)




it'll all get better in time,
next year, the next 2 years, 3 years..
it'll slowly fade,
trust me :)

*praying really hard,
feel like touching those Bio books..
but don't want to :(

-J²™-

omg, yesterday night was real weird..
my brain must be lack of oxygen or something..

must be the chocolates..

too long didn't eat chocolates..

yesh..it must have been them!!

still got 3 bars of Cadburry..

daddy bought 4!!!

omg, heaven!!

gaaaa...

maybe lack of sleep and oxygen?

or too much air in the head?

masuk angin?

the consequences of playing too much comp @.@

just waiting for the right moment to strike :P

-J²™-

*sigh

yesterday was the release of UPSR results..

well 1st of all congratulations to Vicky Vic's brother for getting 5A's

he deserves it, actually I don't know Vic's bro but just want to congratulate him narh..

then today there's the whole page about it..

joyfull and satisfied kids with their result, the grins on their faces..

then my mother asked

mum: hey jin, last time you get how many A's ah?

me: 2 only

mum: har, so little only ah?

me: yes, so? what are you gonna do about it?

mum: aiya, you 'char' la you'

me: *rolls the eye and mumbled the F word

that's why I'm so worried about my PMR results..

I don't want this to happen..

people say who cares if you get bad results, you've tried your best and that's all that matter..

it matters a lot to me..

think about it, it's just UPSR and after 3 years people still ask about it..

what about PMR then? double the years?

and I'm gonna reply 2A's again?

It'll be haunt you for life wey..

and it'll be embarrassing..

and I've made up a very important decision..

thought a lot about it..every night until I cannot sleep for some time...

I know this decision would let a lot of people down..

and also have a very bad impression of me in other peoples eyes..

look down on me and whatsoever..

but I learned that I cannot satisfy everybody, and I wasn't born to do that too..

I know what I want and I don't have to care about other people..

I'll just find the righteous time to tell..

I won't regret..

I guess..

Some things happen to us which we never recover, and they disrupt the normalcy of our lives.

That's how life is.

people are praying, so am I..

the hardest ever..

-J²™ -

celakarrrr, pada mulanya saya sudah hampir habis menulis post ini tetapi suddenly teringat kawan saya suruh saya tulis dalam Bahasa Melayu pulak..
Then saya perlu cancel semua dan tulis semula..

semalam main bola keranjang dengan mereka..
didn't lepas aeroplane..
bermain dengan mereka tambah lagi 2 unknown..
satu sangat panjang punya..yang satu lagi sangat lebar..
tetapi dua-dua pun sangat geng punya..
then selepas itu kami pergi makan di mamak..
vicky vic terpaksa tapao minuman dia kerana mak dia datang..
saya hanya order Milo Ice..
the other 2 itu order tak tau apa dan makan tak tau apa..

I think How makan 2 packet nasi lemak..Sheng makan mee goreng or something like that..
wah..macam sedap wey..MACAM saja okay..
Then kami pergi main lo..
tidak lama kemudian,
How cakap dia punya perut sakit..
sudah pergi 2 kali toilet..
then after that Sheng punya turn..
tak pergi toilet..tahan macam shit..
kacau saya makan lunch saja..
Then pun hujan lo..berteduh di bawah satu bumbung..
saya main basketball in the rain lo, then 2 orang itu keep on saying sakit perut..
but they all still mau pergi main snooker..
okay lo..fine lo..I go back home, they go snooker..
so end lo..



apa yang you all cakap that time saya ada dengar punya..
so don't worry kay..
I'm fine..


oh ya..feel free to check out my website
www.jin.com.my


I can't believe I just wrote this post..
whatever that was written here was written in a drunk condition and am not aware of what I'm typing..
so retarded..@.@

-J²™-

well, this tag was from Hui Xin..
it was actually 2 months ago..
but because I'm too lazy and don't have the time to do such a long tag..
so I decided to do it after PMR..
so now I'm doing it..
This is what I'll have to do..
crap I can't copy it @.@


a. Put your Itunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question press next to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
d. Put this on your blog.

so here it goes..

1. If someone says, " is this okay?"
Natasha Bedingfield-Angel

2. How would you describe yourself?
Secondhand Serenade- YOUR CALL!!! (I have no idea how to describe myself, so you describe me your own way, YOUR CALL! XD )

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
S Club 7- Have You Ever ( have I ever really liked something about a guy/ girl? heeeee XD )

4. How do you feel today?
The Click Five- Empty (totally true....)

5. What is your life purpose?
Celine Dion- From This Moment

6. What is your motto?
Vitamin C- Graduation Song ( to graduate? I guess...)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Gavin DeGraw- Chariot

8. What do you think of your parents?
Secondhand Serenade- Your Call (again...)

9. What do you think about very often?
Leona Lewis- Bleeding Love ( I think of bleeding that much....? )

10. What is 2+2?
Jesse McCartney- It's Over

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Jaci Velasquez- Imagine Me Without You (damn,just imagine that,you're everything to me T.T )

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Boys Like Girls- Thunder (your voice was the soundtrack of my summer) :P

13. What is your life?
Avril Lavigne- Complicated (really? that would be the suckiest thing wey)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas- This Is Me

15. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Natasha Bedingfield- Angel @.@

16. What will you dance at your wedding?
Jet- Look What You've Done (that's like so sad....)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Gavin DeGraw- Chariot lol!!!

18. What is your hobby/ interest?
Katherine Mcphee- Over it (I'm over with my interest..)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Secondhand Serenade- Fall For You....darn..

20. What is your biggest secret?
David Archuleta- Crush

21. What do you think of your friends?
Westlife- I Do

22. What will you post this as?
Shane Ward- Breathless

I'll tag..
the next 5 after 'My Friendster' at the link list..
Hui Xin you've done this so you don't have to do it already..
Have fun guys :P
*sigh you all are darn lucky you can copy straight from my blog..darn

can't believe I forgotten to put the sign again, darn

-J²™-

*sigh
alright I didn't finish the book in time..
But but but, I'll continue it next tommorow..
I promise kay..XD

Tommorow gonna play basketball, again..
It gets me out of my house..
and not just stick my ass on the comp and playing it the whole day..
that'll be boring right?

got to go peeeps..
it's late now..
don't wanna miss tommorow's plan right..
later they'll say FFK again and call me the Aeroplane King..
heee XD...
happpy to be it, one of a kind..
frankly I don't care what they say la..

scrambles off~


it's hard to explain the unexplainable..

-J²™-

currently reading '90 Minutes In Heaven'..
well..break for a while..
but am determined to finish it by tonight..
IF and IF I finish reading it,
it would be my 1st ever book to be finished reading..
well..all these while all the books that I've touch,
only managed to read it halfway then I don't care about them already..
heeee XD



and have you all ever heard I DO from Westlife?
darn..it's so nice~

WESTLIFE- I DO
Tell me can you feel my heart beat
Tell me as I kneel down at your feet
I knew that there would come a time
When these two hearts would entwine
Just put your hand in mine
Forever

For so long I have been an island
Where no one could ever reach these shores
We've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this I swear

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
If you ask will
I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

I'm ready to begin this journey
Well I'm with you with every step you take
And we've got a whole lifetime to share
And I'll always be there
Darling this I swear

So please believe me
For these words
I say are true
And don't deny me
A lifetime loving you
If you ask will I be true
Do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

So come on just take my hand
Oh, come on let's make a stand for our love
I know this is so hard to believe
So please

So please believe me
For these words I say are true
And don't deny me A lifetime loving you
And if you ask will I be true
And do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

And if you ask will I be true
And do I give my all to you
Then I will say I do

-J²™-

wassup peeps..
well today was some day..
Jiun How actually came to my house to teach me guitar :D
well...he's like the first friend of my friends from school to step his foot into my house, so be GRATEFUL!! :P

well..we got started..
Thunder..found the notes and he played a while but changed his mind cause it was too hard for him..
Then comes Fall For You!!
well..the tune wasn't as good and soothing as piano but that'll do it narh..
cant wait to get my hands on those piano!! arghh!!!
I learned and tried, learned and tried..
after 5 hours..I only know how to play the starting and the chorus..darn..
I'm learning so slow :(
And my wrist is beginning to ache..
well..cant't give up..
told myself to master it within a few weeks..
btw, guitar is not hard..
it's just the way of positioning your lil fingers on those strings..
it hurts because you have to press it real hard to make a good tune of it..
but..guess I'll make it :P

next song would be...
MORE THAN WORDS!!
Jiun How played it and it was like so so so nice..ahhhhhhhhhhh~

*sigh!!
Btw, Chariot is one good song..
and the way Gavin DeGraw plays it on piano..bravo!! :D

-J²™-

okay..
this is getting boooooooooooooooooring...
Wake up, eat, tv, exercise, comp...
and it goes on and on..


urm mate?
whatever I write here..
is not your concern and you don't have to repeat it nor comment it..
well, just keep it to yourself and whatever..
just ssshhh..

SPM's tommorow,
it's past 12 so it's today..
well good luck to you form 5 peeeps out there..
all the best..
Good luck to you and you, you and urm, you? and maybe you..you there, yea you..and I think you and also the one beside you, yes you..don't look around, it's you..and probably you eventhough I don't really know you and oh ya you!! almost forgotten about you..and urm..I think thats it then..
have a good night sleep!!


*sigh
it's raining...........
any indications?
hidden meaning or something :(

-J²™-

It's just another day..
well I still thank god for letting me sunshines everyday..
watched final fantasy advent children again..
love that show..btw, what is advent?
hmm..got to look it up..

*sigh
I thought of telling and asking something..
But I'm still so doubtful and hesitate so much..
Felt like letting it go but don't want to..
and that feeling goes on and on and on..
crap..

It's funny when I think back I used to live life for people's sake and satisfaction..
well I'm not doing that anymore..
I've changed..into..a better me?
ah whatever it is I've changed and that's all that matters now..
and if you have any bad intentions to disrupt my life..
If you place of your smelly foot into my life..
and just try to mess up my life..
I can asure you'll get ten times back of what you've done..
I'll make sure you pay..

butbutbut..
I'm not that of a bad person nia..
I'm just a normal kid..and as crazy as you..
ooohhh I can be damn crazy..ask my friends, they know it :P
so you don't have to be afraid to me..but just don't try to mess up my life la kays..
but if you wanna fight I'll sure lose then..cause I'm a a boy with a lil body..real lil and with soft bones..sob..don't beat me up :(

Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
and this is what I'm gonna do now..
kcuf the world..
heeeee XD

-J²™ -

I've learn a new word..

Genocide-The systematic and planned extermination of an entire national, racial, political, or ethnic group

sounds cool to me :P



*sigh
I suck in life..
my friend was right..
I chose to suck in life..
look at me..so pathetic :(
pathetically craving for Mcflurry and Cadburry and Famous Amous..
*big big sigh


what are you looking at?!

-J²™ -

Well..thanks to my family, I woke up at 11 today..
Early in the morning already started bickering..
Fill the air with their noise..
I was like going to shout 'cut it out already, darn!!'
gaaa..don't want to get involve..
Alright, bickering are all over..
But I can't sleep already.. grrrrr
darn pissed off...

Well..stucked at home again..
feel so sleepy ~.~
slept at 5 yesterday..can't help it right..I couldn't sleep..
Sis went to Midvalley..thought of asking her to get me some Famous Amous cookies..
My all time favourite..but she couldn't find it :(
no cookies..
actually don't know who bought it few days ago..but I didn't eat..didn't have the mood too..and with the sorethroat too..better not touch it..

*sigh
don't know what's wrong with my family these days..
I'm just starting to hate them :(
suka suka they scold, suka suka they're so polite..
And I'm not the one doing wrong..but still want to push the fault to me..fine..
and then whatever I ask or say..using brains or without brains..
they scold also..well the least is criticize..
I don't even know when's the right time to talk, or ask..darn..
well okay, here's the thing..
you don't get on my nerves, I don't get on your nerves..
is that better?
scram..


I've made up my mind right?
Why bother hesitating again?
*sighsighsigh
my face!! :(

-J²™-

*sigh
It's been three weeks since PMR..
it's over..and now even school's done..
Been at home since..
Haven't really go out..not totally didn't go out la..but haven't really had the chance to go crazy
especially going out with friends..
those 6 monkeys..always get crazy when I hang out with them..and I like them saying 'today you didn't take medicine ah?' or maybe 'today you take wrong pills is it?'
I think when I get crazy, I'll be craziest among them :P

*big sigh
don't know when can really get to hang out with them..and really get crazy..
but I like to FFK :P
currently planning with Xin to go around KL and take pics..she's planning most of it..no everything I mean..then only inform us..hheeeee XD

I had this ridiculous dream again..not results la..
I dreamt I was free falling..and it wasn't the 1st time..
That feeling was really the falling from the sky and I can really feel it..
and I hit the ground real hard and....died..
whatever it is..I really felt the impact..
It was just a dream..don't think too much okay..
Just tell yourself to think of something better next time..
Maybe you can think of something..like urm..something that would never happen in your life?
heee...xD

guess that's all..
night..
It's already 3..
and I'm still not sleepy :(

don't get yourself thinking too much aite..
wouldn't be good for you if you continue to think of negative stuffs..

-J²™ -

There's 3 thing I'm craving for now..

But I can only have 1..

so choose WISELY :P

M&M's
Let the melamine melt in your mouth, not in your hands :P

I think they don't sell this anymore..This type I mean

Is this okay?

I like this the most, but too expensive already :(

-J²™ -

not till you tag..heee..(don't have the emoticon here) :P



sleep eujin, you've gotto sleep,
you've got to jog remember?

Thought all that I've told myself what to do the next day was going to be forgotten again..
as usual :S
but but but..I was wrong..
I still remember what I told myself..
and guess what, I actually woke up at 6 to go for jogging!!
SURPRISED RIGHT?!! ME TOO!! 1st time since after PMR..wow, am so darn proud of myself :D
But can I be doing this continuously? we'll find out..
and later in the afternoon I sneaked without my fathers notice to play basketball :P
well for only about 2 hours, after that I came back..just in time xD
Hmm..2 hours of jogging..2 hours of basketball,
It'll put me to sleep tonight..I guess :X


I was born to live life, not living life because I was born..
I love this sentence..

-J²™-

It's now 3.24 and ticking..
I've got myself an answer..
I'm giving it 1 last try..

Sheng, How..I thank you for what you've tell me..
and to another friend that stayed up later than expected to help me..
Thank you all..
She gave me a very good advice..
"Live life the way you want it to be"
I'm gonna remember it :D


I'm not thinking already..
I'm sleeping..now..

-J²™-

I can't continue to be like that..

especially the tears part..

I'M GONNA BE A SISSY SOONER OR LATER!!

DAMN!! @@

-J²™-

Have you all ever heard this song?
I think it's kinda old but still sweet as it sounds..
Don't you just hate it when you know what's the meaning of it?

S Club 7- Have You Ever

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go..

-J²™-

It was way deeper than that..way deeper

*sigh
Think somethings really wrong in me :(
It's happening since then..
Sleepless nights, flashbacks, bad dreams, plus I shed tears every night before I sleep..
and guess wad, only 1 tear rolled down..WHAT DA HECK DOES THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!!!
ROAR!!
god save me :(

I knew I was going get in this condition few months back,
because I've been through it before few years back,
and now I'm really back in this condition..
but this time was way serious..way deeper :(
And the reason I have sleepless nights is because I don't want to close my eyes..
Everytime I close I would see something,and I thought opening it would be better..
That's why I can't sleep
*sigh
I didn't know it would leave such a huge crater, well comparing to the previous 1
gaaa, why do I always to be in this shit?!
I don't like it!! I hate it!!
I wish things would rewind..I wish this would never happen at all in the first place..darn..
I don't know what to do already, I'm out of ideas..
can someone help me? please? heee...:D
and guess wad..I had a dream this morning, a bad dream..
I went to school to check my PMR results..and I found out I only got 2A's and loads of D's
just like what I got for UPSR,well not the D part la..
I was devastated..and I cried badly..
and when I forced myself to wake up..I felt tears in my eyes..I actually did really cried even when I was only dreaming..
bad omen, really bad..things are really bad I guess :(
wonder how I'm going to react if it really happens?
It would be the biggest catastrophe in my entire life..

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moving on, well, not really moving..but going on, means moving on..
it still freaking mean moving on right?!
see I'm out of my mind, crazy, wacko, lunatic YOU NAME IT!!
I've decided to give myself a second chance in squash,
losing isn't the end of it..
my friend was right, parents was half right,
I should stay strong and don't give up so easily..
I've showed them before when I was young, in a smaller size..
but now I've just grown a lil bigger in size, nothing much..
I've showed them before and I'll show them again..
I'll make their eyes pop out, their jaws grow longer, and their balls touch the ground!!
heeee.... :D
I would like to see that happen..:P
Anyway, this time I really mean it..
but if I really can't make it..then maybe it's time to back off then..


Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

-J²™ -

Thought blogging was to express more on feeling and try to offend people less..
But less wasn't good enough, offended somebody in the previous post..
maybe I was born to offend people :(
But thanks for not asking me to do that embarrassing thing and forgive me..
But still am grateful to get to know both of you, thanks :)
better not mention who again..
who knows if that peep gets angry again and what brilliant idea would go through the head and throw it on me, don't want to take the risk :P
heeeeee :D
Little boy knows his mistakes..


*sigh
Don't know what wrong with me today..
There's only 8 songs that's nice to hear..
The Click Five-Empty
Shane Ward-Breathless
David Archuleta-Crush
Vitamin C-Graduation Song
Jaci Velasquez-Imagine Me Without You
Jesse McCartney-It's Over

including these 2 songs that I heard most the most time,
Boys Like Girls-Thunder
Secondhand Serenade-Fall For You

It's all the emo songs..darn..
It's emo and nice at the same time..arghh..
Why can't I just get over that freaking matter?!
Accept it, you can't change the freaking fact okay..suck it up!!
ROAR!! @@
Just like what ze said, it'll all get better in time..:(


I wasn't being a nanny okay..
I was just being concern thats all :(
Laughing at myself thinking lifes not fair..

-J²™-

I was hearing songs and I suddenly this song came out that made me liked it the whole day..

Vitamin C-Graduation Song

Look for the lyrics when you hear this song..

It's very meaningful..

Try not to be sad when you all hear this song..

but it made me sad :(

I could recall the day I was in this condition..

Hey peeps..
Trick or threated yesterday?
If you had celebrated Halloween please be thankful and be lucky, cause not everyone celebrated it including me :(
But I had fun at my class partay..
Loads of fun, water, basketball and BARBEQUE..not to mention about the smoke screen :P
Only manage to get a few pics..

Aunty Yee aka orang utan the Chick Griller!! xD

urm..Peptard the Ancestor of the Tard family is I don't want to say it :X

That's all folks..

-J²™-

I guess today's a day when everyone becomes sad and emotional..

Over little matters..they can be sad for the next few hours..
I don't know how to say it, my friends are sad..I am sad..practically we're all sad :(
I don't know why..it's just hard to express with words..



Just few hours ago I thought of something..
When I was in the car, my friend's dad was fetching me back home with another friend..
and I looked out the window most of the time..
As the street lamps flashes by, I begin to think of the pass..
I don't want to talk about the pass, but I important thing that I thought was this : why bother giving blank promises when you're not sure whether you can fulfill it
If I could have just thought of this before, the one sitting beside me wouldn't have to suffer..
But it's already the pass..I've got to move on..



Over the years, I've lost many love ones..
Either family, friends or anything..
Through passing away, break-ups, leaving..
I've gone through it many times, and it's not fun at all..it's very saddening and depressing..
I really hope I wouldn't go through all these too many times..if not i may lose my head..:(


Speaking of moving on, there's just one thing that I can't leave behind..and I really can't accept the fact..
*sighsighsighsighsigh :(



btw, thanks for liking the gift :D

-J²™-

well someone out there is mean enough..

leaving the blog without tagging :(

you're mean, very mean

*sigh

and to all other peeps that were mean too..

:(

you're all mean..:(

-J²™ -

I've been hearing this song..

I don't know whether it suits you but it certainly suits me..

Brian Mcfadden - Like Only A Woman Can music video

I wasn't perfect

I done a lot of stupid things

Still no angel

I wasn't looking for forgiveness

I wasn't laid up by my pride

Just shocked by her attention

Did someone sign me up for love?

I didn't want it

But now I can't live without it

She changed my life

She cleaned me up

She found my heart

Like only a woman can

She pulls me up

When she knows I'm sad

She knows her man

Like only a woman can

She's kinda perfect

She's kinda everything I'm not

Yes, she's an angel

It's amazing how she's patient

Even more at times I'm not

She's my conscience

But who decided I'd be hers?

I want to hate them

Cause now I can't live without her

She changed my life

She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can

But who decided I'd be hers?

I want to hate them

Cause now I can't live without her

She changed my life
She cleaned me up

She found my heart

Like only a woman can

She pulls me up

When she knows I'm sad

She knows her man

Like only a woman can...

Dedicated to everyone out there, to me...

-J²™ -

I just don't know what to say right now..
I cannot accept the fact..
It all just seem too soon for me..too quick..too fast..
It's just like last year's thing and now it's ending..:(
What am I gonna do?
I, I just don't know..
My brain's now a blank..plain white..no thoughts, nothing at all..
*sigh

don't cry eujin, it's all gonna be just fine, I'm here :P

-J²™-

I'm on cloud 9 peeeps..

cloud 9..

unbelievable..

Dreamland here I come..

:p

-J²™-

Though I'm gonna be fine after a good night sleep..
but it still came back =.=
made me so sick..
curse you!!

Thought that I was just going to live up with tissues the whole day...
but..MIRACLE happened again..xD
ONLINE!! Finally!! O_N_L_I_N_E!! O-N-L-I-N-E!!
This was my first ever chance..
Never had that chance before..
Stomach got pain, hands were cold, thoughts was empty..
Gaaa..forgotten to ask so many things..shit betul..
ROAR!!!!

Going back to Ipoh..not gonna online for like 3 days..
what if miracle happens again when i'm not around?
consider myself unlucky then..

-J²™-

bad..just bad..

Having flu again..

Why can't it just leave me alone??

gaaaa...

ROAR!!

:(

8 more days to the saddest day of my life..:(

god bless me..

-J²™-

Anybody watching this show?

Well..I'm in love with it..

it's a very darn nice show..

it's about the power of the 4 ultimate elements..

Earth, Fire, Water, Wind

You should watch it sometimes..

Some says it's kiddy..even from that picture you can actually think so right?

but I would rather say..urm, interesting?

(I don't give a damn of what you think xD )

Well..catch you peeps some other times aite..

Btw, school magazine rocks..

I'M GONNA SO FREAKING FRAME IT UP :P

you can find everything, and I mean everything!!

-J²™-

your first day of kindergarten was scary,

your last day of middle school made you cry,

the end of high school will blow your mind,

it's all the memories in

between we'll cherish and remember

forever...

-J²™-

Guess wad?
I've made a deal with sista Yining that will be beneficial for both of us

I wanna learn piano, she wants to learn squash..
I'm good at it, and she's good at that..
So we decided to exchange our 'skills'..

And I bet in no time, she'll be whacking those balls like a pro
and I'll be..urm..maybe pressing those keys like a..pro i guess? xD

well..hope so..
bye peeps..

oh ya..and CAHAYA's out!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!
can't wait to see it xP

-J²™-

JUST A LITTLE WARNING FER THOSE WHO LIKES TO BUILD SO MUCH ABS

especially sista Yining :P

I kinda failed my arts so..yea xD

BEWARE!!

-J²™-

Job interview tommorow!!
Wish me luck!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!

-J²™-

Yesterday me, Jiun How, Yang Sheng, and da Victor went to play basketball..

It has been ages since I've played basketball..

and since it's after PMR..we played from 8 till 2 almost 3

crazy huh?

I was totally exausted..

Showed them OUG by walking around..

Hungry then eat..hungry then eat..

Then play..then eat..then play..

It's been a long time since I've so much fun..

Well..the other time was at CC and Da MTM!!

woooooooooooooot!!! xD

Still miss it..

Anyway, we've got loads of time now..to go everywhere..

from che cheong gai to buy my dream shirt..;P

to Louyat to buy gadgets...and Sunway to have fun..not to miss out Genting..

Lovin it!!

Have fun lookin at da pics below peeps..

Veins of The Clouds

Zong Lin upside down
Is that me.....? ;PNo doubt, he's good at it

Yeap..darn good
Does it look like an E ?

Chair freeze or sumthin..

Yay!! Jiun How finally succeeded!!
There's him again

Wheeee!!

and there's me!!

.......

Zong Lin!! Yang Sheng nicely snapping there only XD

He's gonna break his neck sooner or later =X

Slumber ass...

*speechless
Jiun How trying hard


The guy beside him ain't me :D

Don't think sideways..He just fell..
SHENG!!
This was the sole of Jiun How's shoes..Pretty huh?
❤


What I ate..

I'm friggin hungry..

Victor's gonna shoot!!


It's going in... not!!! it actually went out

One man show!!


The Three Noobies..
the forth one was the camera holder..xD

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-J²™-